Date
Name
On This Date
Mom/E-mail
Jan. 1, 1977
Jeff Bales
Was Born
Susy B.
Jan. 1, 1990
Jessica Doty
Was Born
Lisa W.
Jan. 1, 1979
Shelby Jane Motes
Was Born An Angel
Jaynee M.
Jan. 1, 1997
Henry Koontz
Was Born
Wakenda Y.
Jan. 1, 2001
Mikey Reilly
Became An Angel
Pattisue R.
Jan. 1, 2002
Brennan Cory Flook
Became An Angel
Sherri F.
Jan. 1, 2003
Karina Joy Ann Bledsoe
Was Born An Angel
Amy B.
Jan. 1, 2005
Ashton Michael Cookson
Became An Angel
Melissa R.
Jan. 1, 2005
Zachary
Became An Angel
Melanie P.
Jan. 1, 2006
Samantha Beaudette
Became An Angel
Sharon A.
Jan. 2, 1973
Sacia Katherine Baisch
Was Born
Maggi B.
Jan. 2, 2000
Hailey
Became An Angel
Traci W.
Jan. 2, 2002
Gabrielle Alyssa
Became An Angel
Sharika O.
Jan. 2, 2003
Brooklynn Hope Hall
Became An Angel
Angela H.
Jan. 2, 2004
Teresa Oakley
Became An Angel
Jerri O.
Jan. 2, 2007
Taylor Andrews
Was Born
Jennifer A.
Jan. 3, 1981
Mike Scarpati
Was Born
Lynn S.
Jan. 3, 1982
Brendalee Dafoe
Was Born
Debbie D.
Jan. 3, 1983
Brian Shrum
Was Born
Lisa C.
Jan. 3, 1986
Allison Rose Tasi
Was Born
Maureen G.
Jan. 3, 1990
Amanda Porter
Was Born
Edie P.
Jan. 3, 1996
Zachary Oakes
Became An Angel
Twila C.
Jan. 3, 1996
Aryton
Was Born
Ashlie
Jan. 3, 2006
Paula Jo Aurich
Became An Angel
Becky A.
Jan. 4, 1994
Nicole Crenshaw
Was Born
Renee B.
Jan. 4, 1996
Nicholas
Became An Angel
Renee
Jan. 4, 2002
Alyssa Murann Czarnecki
Was Born
Stacy C.
Jan. 4, 2004
Jamie Martinez
Became An Angel
Naomi G.
Jan. 4, 2005
Unknown Angel
Was Born An Angel
Judi J.
Jan. 4, 2005
Eric Christian
Was Born An Angel
Angela H.
Jan. 4, 2006
Darien Wilson
Became An Angel
Sidney W.
Jan. 4, 2007
Jessica Doty
Became An Angel
Lisa W.
Jan. 5, 1982
Joseph Sorenson
Was Born
Lynda S.
Jan. 5, 1996
Annette Danielle Carver
Became An Angel
Sandra M.
Jan. 5, 2002
Andrew James Dobbins a.k.a. "Andy" or "Dobbs"
Became An Angel
Nancy D.
Jan. 5, 2003
Ethan Loffer
Became An Angel
Rhona L.
Jan. 5, 2004
Rylee Grace Norris
Was Born
Erin N.
Jan. 6, 1971
Craig
Was Born
Lorraine
Jan. 6, 1977
Brian Lee Oshel
Was Born
Bambi O.
Jan. 6, 1981
Michael Joseph Reams
Was Born
Teresa U.
Jan. 6, 2001
Coral Ann Lemke
Became An Angel
Windy L.
Jan. 6, 2001
Cassie Hubbard
Became An Angel
Carolyn A.
Jan. 6, 2001
Jeffery Ola
Became An Angel
Georgie K.
Jan. 6, 2003
Brendan Tyler Gonzalez
Became An Angel
Rebecca G
Jan. 6, 2004
Rylee Grace Norris
Became An Angel
Erin N.
Jan. 6, 2004
Jackson Dale Jernigan
Became An Angel
Joanna J.
Jan. 6, 2007
Acadia Faith Roy
Became An Angel
Melissa R.
Jan. 7, 1984
Douglas Krause
Became An Angel
Dora K.
Jan. 7, 1986
Joshua Ryan Ford
Was Born
Tracey S.
Jan. 7, 1995
Braxton Everett
Became An Angel
Jill R.
Jan. 7, 1997
Benjamin Taylor
Became An Angel
Suzanne F.
Jan. 7, 1998
Hunnar Florine
Became An Angel
Eva F.
Jan. 7, 1998
Samantha Eveline Carlson
Became An Angel
Maureen C.
Jan. 7, 2002
Mikayla Michelle Cain
Became An Angel
Brandy C.
Jan. 7, 2005
Raleigh Nicole Bowen
Was Born An Angel
Ginna B.
Jan. 7, 2005
Zackary Ray Salvati
Became An Angel
Krista S.
Jan. 7, 2005
Justin Harres
Became An Angel
Cyndi H.
Jan. 7, 2006
Skylar Reese Stanfield
Was Born
Carlie B.
Jan. 7, 2007
Taylor
Became An Angel
Nikia B.
Jan. 8, 1979
Kristopher Kevin Doebbler
Was Born
Linda C.
Jan. 8, 1985
Craig Bresson
Was Born
Donna C.
Jan. 8, 1986
Kyle Andrew Watz
Was Born
Teri W.
Jan. 8, 2003
Tyrel Joshua Pine
Became An Angel
Lorelei P.
Jan. 8, 2003
Christa Lynn (Backus) Ellis
Became An Angel
Deborah B.
Jan. 8, 2004
Aiden Kenneth Nydegger
Was Born An Angel
Morgan N.
Jan. 8, 2005
Tyler James
Was Born An Angel
Tina G.
Jan. 8, 2006
Kyle Andrew Watz
Became An Angel
Teri W.
Jan. 8, 2007
Alfie Deacon
Was Born An Angel
Tracey D.
Jan. 9, 1985
Angela Marie Faust
Was Born An Angel
Robin F.
Jan. 9, 1992
Andrew Paul Pasche
Was Born
Kim J.
Jan. 9, 1999
Alliyah Lashay Dingus
Became An Angel
Talita D.
Jan. 9, 2001
Nicholas
Became An Angel
Brenda M.
Jan. 9, 2001
Andrew Hooker
Became An Angel
Doris H.
Jan. 9, 2002
Kiersten "Kiki" Eline Fontenot
Became An Angel
Jeanne F.
Jan. 9, 2006
Joshua Fortson
Was Born
Shagayla F.
Jan. 9, 2007
Matthew Cameron Colbert
Became An Angel
Amy C.
Jan. 10, 1977
Dillon Benjamin Butler
Was Born
Linda V.
Jan. 10, 1978
Thomas A. Wintz, III
Was Born
Cindy S.
Jan. 10, 1991
Dustin & Brandon
Became Angels
Maria G.
Jan. 10, 1998
Tyler
Was Born
Brenda R.
Jan. 10, 2000
Emily Rose Bean
Was Born
Janet M.
Jan. 10, 2002
Craig G. Petersen
Was Born
Tiffany P.
Jan. 10, 2006
Skylar Reese Stanfield
Became An Angel
Carlie B.
Jan. 11, 1984
Cherilyn Lea Andersen
Was Born
Esther P.
Jan. 11, 2002
Taylor Clifft
Became An Angel
Diane D.
Jan. 11, 2003
Ethan Alan Cox
Was Born
Katherine C.
Jan. 11, 2004
Cristopher
Became An Angel
Karen S.
Jan. 12, 1983
Shawn Wade Thomason
Was Born
Charlane Z.
Jan. 12, 1985
Bryan Christopher Plunkett
Was Born
Sandi R.
Jan. 12, 2002
Jill Volkmann
Became An Angel
Chris V.
Jan. 12, 2002
Jordan Michael Draper
Became An Angel
Dina D.
Jan. 13, 1973
Kathy Joe Maynard
Was Born
Sharlene A.
Jan. 13, 1979
Ryan Magill
Was Born
Susan M.
Jan. 13, 1982
Ronnie Lynn Thompson
Was Born
Lorri H.
Jan. 13, 1986
Allison Rose Tasi
Was Born
Maureen G.
Jan. 13, 1986
Kristopher Aubrey Farr
Was Born
Kimberlee F.
Jan. 13, 1995
Jariah Sherrall Monae' Tidwell
Became An Angel
Veronica K.
Jan. 13, 2003
Ethan Alan Cox
Became An Angel
Katherine C.
Jan. 13, 2003
Andrea Jewel "A.J."
Was Born
Julie
Jan. 13, 2004
Joshua Callow
Became An Angel
Mary S.
Jan. 13, 2006
Misty's Angel
Was Born An Angel
Misty
Jan. 14, 1970
Kenny Wayne Cline, Jr.
Was Born
Stellie C.
Jan. 14, 1970
Anthony "Tony" Chevalier
Was Born
Flo S.
Jan. 14, 1971
Kyle Edvard Ericksen
Was Born
Sharron E.
Jan. 14, 1973
Patrick Thompson
Was Born
Casey
Jan. 14, 1976
Torrie
Was Born
Darlene K.
Jan. 14, 1985
Dustin Brand
Was Born
Chris B.
Jan. 14, 1989
Nathaniel Sonny Watie III
Was Born
Philesha W.
Jan. 14, 1990
Joshua Bell
Became An Angel
Dawn
Jan. 14, 2000
Aaron Elijah
Became An Angel
Valrie
Jan. 14, 2000
Jordan Ferris
Became An Angel
Debra
Jan. 14, 2002
Michael O'Brien
Became An Angel
Ruby O.
Jan. 14, 2002
Craig G. Petersen
Became An Angel
Tiffany P.
Jan. 14, 2003
Luke Anthony
Was Born
Kitty
Jan. 14, 2003
Luke Anthony
Became An Angel
Kitty
Jan. 14, 2004
David Christian Fox
Became An Angel
Susan F.
Jan. 14, 2005
Jude Pritchett
Was Born
Hannah R.
Jan. 14, 2006
Matthew Sandon Sonnenberg Klein
Was Born
Julie S-K.
Jan. 15
William Bryan
Was Born An Angel
Laura J.
Jan. 15, 1982
Timothy Adam Hollingsworth "Speedy"
Was Born
Judy H.
Jan. 15, 1987
Corrina Jenell Parslow
Was Born
Michelle D.
Jan. 15, 1987
Angelica Hatchell
Was Born
Tammy H-W.
Jan. 15, 1997
Madison Elizabeth "My Maddie”
Was Born
Stacie W.
Jan. 15, 1997
Brandon Lee Bricker
Was Born
Janeane B.
Jan. 15, 2005
Kristin Gillis
Became An Angel
Gail M.
Jan. 15, 2006
Ashley Jordan & Peyton Amber Nielsen
Were Born
Jennifer N.
Jan. 15, 2006
Peyton Amber Nielsen
Became An Angel
Jennifer N.
Jan. 16, 1985
Natalie Catrine Jatib
Was Born
Ann G.
Jan. 16, 1986
Nicholas
Was Born
Joanne H.
Jan. 16, 1992
Shelby Lynn Howard
Was Born
Linda H.
Jan. 16, 2000
Natalie
Became An Angel
Monique H.
Jan. 16, 2002
Cameron Paul Curry "Bubby"
Was Born
Pam C.
Jan. 16, 2003
Jodie Leigh Wilcox
Was Born
Vanessa B.
Jan. 16, 2003
Kody
Became An Angel
Laura B.
Jan. 16, 2003
Eugene W. Ezzell III
Became An Angel
/td>
Cynthia E.
Jan. 16, 2006
Ashley Jordan Nielsen
Became An Angel
Jennifer N.
Jan. 17, 1983
Jeanne Frances Jones
Was Born
Laura J.
Jan. 17, 1988
Marcus Allen
Was Born
Julie A.
Jan. 17, 2002
Jessyka
Was Born
Christie
Jan. 18, 1986
Michele Lenore Iannacchino
Became An Angel
Catherine W.
Jan. 18, 1999
Frank Michael Jannicelli
Became An Angel
Marlene T.
Jan. 18, 2005
Breanna Arthurs
Became An Angel
Corinne A.
Jan. 18, 2006
Jenny Schneider
Became An Angel
Joan B.
Jan. 19, 1993
April Gardner
Was Born
Joy G.
Jan. 19, 1982
Christopher Eric Scott
Was Born
Wendi M.
Jan. 19, 2003
Sam Robert Wilkinson
Became An Angel
Joanna W.
Jan. 19, 2006
Jesse Buttons Bowles
Was Born An Angel
Amanda B.
Jan. 19, 2006
Laurie Rae Walden
Became An Angel
Linda W.
Jan. 20, 1963
Michael O'Brien
Was Born
Ruby O.
Jan. 20, 1976
Ronald
Was Born
Cathie
Jan. 20, 1984
Randall Thomas Crowder "Randy"
Was Born
Dawnetta D.
Jan. 20, 1988
Shawndalyn Gehue
Was Born
Anne F.
Jan. 20, 1996
Danielle
Was Born
Christie
Jan. 20, 2001
Ashlynn Nicole
Was Born
Scarlett
Jan. 20, 2001
Ashlynn Nicole
Became An Angel
Scarlett
Jan. 20, 2001
Scott Andrew
Became An Angel
Karen
Jan. 20, 2003
Andrea Jewel "A.J."
Became An Angel
Julie
Jan. 20, 2004
Jeremy Fisk
Became An Angel
Bridget F.
Jan. 20, 2007
Laura Nicole Martinez
Was Born An Angel
Heidi H.
Jan. 21, 1978
Frank Michael Jannicelli
Was Born
Eileen P.
Jan. 21, 1982
Kenny Keogh
Was Born
Cathy
Jan. 21, 1985
Matthew David Wise
Was Born
Elena W.
Jan. 21, 1985
Tevin Kreitz
Was Born
Kim S.
Jan. 21, 1994
Gabrielle "Gabby" Hilgenbrink
Was Born
Robin B.
Jan. 21, 1994
Tyler D. Pril
Was Born
Tammy S.
Jan. 21, 2001
Bob
Became An Angel
Maggie K.
Jan. 21, 2001
Kyjuan James
Was Born An Angel
Sara A.
Jan. 21, 2003
Andrew Paul Pasche
Became An Angel
Kim J.
Jan. 21, 2007
Jonathan Morgan
Was Born An Angel
Mary M.
Jan. 22, 1974
Sylvia Marie Nunez Cassidy
Was Born
Diana Z.
Jan. 22, 1976
Vaughn
Was Born
Connie S.
Jan. 22, 1983
Rodger Douglas Winn
Was Born
Connie S.
Jan. 22, 2005
Nathaniel J. Etter
Was Born
Kay C.
Jan. 23, 1964
Enoch James Britt "Jamie"
Was Born
Maxine E.
Jan. 23, 1986
Courtney Elizabeth DeShea McLean
Was Born
Amber K.
Jan. 23, 1991
Emily Verrett
Was Born
Lisa P.
Jan. 23, 2005
Henry Koontz
Became An Angel
Wakenda Y.
Jan. 23, 2006
Anjelique Camille Augustin
Was Born
Elizabeth A.
Jan. 24, 1997
Anthony Hilgenbrink
Was Born
Robin B.
Jan. 24, 2002
Derek Gene Lee
Became An Angel
Amie T.
Jan. 24, 2003
Brittney Rene Howard
Was Born
Jennifer H.
Jan. 24, 2003
Brittney Rene Howard
Became An Angel
Jennifer H.
Jan. 24 2003
Megan
Became An Angel
Beth
Jan. 24, 2003
Jacob Michael Carithers
Became An Angel
Melanie
Jan. 24, 2004
Ellie Ryan
Became An Angel
Becky R.
Jan. 24, 2005
Danielle
Became An Angel
Christie
Jan. 24, 2005
Kedah Skye Brink
Became An Angel
Danille B.
Jan. 24, 2006
Michael Lee Turner 3rd
Was Born An Angel
Tamika C.
Jan. 25, 1970
Gary Powe
Was Born
Dorothy C.
Jan. 25, 1972
Rebecca Otts
Was Born
Lavenia O.
Jan. 25, 1974
Felicia Lynette Mabray
Was Born
Robin R.
Jan. 25, 1981
Thomas Upton
Became An Angel
Margie P.
Jan. 25, 1985
Tevin Kreitz
Was Born
Kim S.
Jan. 25, 1986
Ashley
Was Born
Deanna W.
Jan. 25, 1997
Cory Hurst
Became An Angel
Janice
Jan. 25, 1998
Jarred
Became An Angel
Karen A.
Jan. 25, 1998
Destinee
Was Born
Connie
Jan. 25, 2001
John Paul
Was Born An Angel
Shelia
Jan. 25, 2004
Angie
Became An Angel
Shelley
Jan. 25, 2004
Braydon Jay Ryan
Became An Angel
Ana-Isabel D.
Jan. 25, 2005
Dalasia Damaria Johnson
Was Born
Shundrica B.
Jan. 27, 2006
Jamari Frazier
Became An Angel
Marisa L.
Jan. 26, 1966
Aiyana Patrice Cox
Was Born
Patricia F-C.
Jan. 26, 1980
Nicole Zariske
Was Born
Mary C.
Jan. 26, 1985
Alidajean Marie Palo
Was Born
Lisa Y.
Jan. 26, 1994
Mystic Lynn Eide
Was Born
Heather E.
Jan. 26, 1999
Joshua Aaron McLaughlin
Was Born
Charity M.
Jan. 26, 2000
David White
Became An Angel
Gina W.
Jan. 26, 2002
Justin Tyler Murphy
Was Born An Angel
Jami M.
Jan. 26, 2003
Fiona Skye Rogers
Was Born
Megan R.
Jan. 26, 2003
Brendan "Lane" Sullivan
Was Born
Heather S.
Jan. 26, 2004
William James Wade, Jr. "JJ"
Became An Angel
Diane C.
Jan. 27, 1984
Martin
Was Born
Alma
Jan. 27, 2006
Jamari Frazier
Was Born An Angel
Marisa L.
Jan. 27, 2006
Deborah Sabroski-Fanean
Became An Angel
Carol P.
Jan. 27, 2006
Isaac Greenlaw
Was Born
Tricia G.
Jan. 28, 1977
Nathan Douglas Lent
Was Born
Linda L.
Jan. 28, 1982
David Bloom
Was Born
Charron B.
Jan. 28, 1986
Julie
Was Born An Angel
Amy H.
Jan. 28, 1986
James L. Vandewater, IV
Was Born
Vickie V.
Jan. 28, 1996
Brandon Curtis Morton
Was Born
Susan S.
Jan. 28, 2001
Leevi
Became An Angel
Pia T.
Jan. 29, 1971
Stephen Ronald Goebel "Steve"
Was Born
Pat G.
Jan. 29, 1978
Aaron Michael
Was Born
Seanna
Jan. 29, 1981
Jill
Was Born
Laurie M.
Jan. 29, 1998
Alexander Harrison Soto "Alex"
Was Born
Karla S.
Jan. 29, 1999
Frank Michael Jannicelli
Offically Became An Angel
Valerie
Jan. 29, 2004
Ashley Elizabeth Russo
Was Born
Mary Jane R.
Jan. 29, 2005
Stephenie Kaye Crouch
Became An Angel
Mary A.
Jan. 30, 1998
Ashton "Jimmy" Jones
Was Born
Pam N.
Jan. 30, 2000
Joanne
Became An Angel
Margaret
Jan. 30, 2001
Jeremy
Became An Angel
Donna A.
Jan. 30, 2002
Christian John Andersen
Became An Angel
Anne A.
Jan. 30, 2003
Olivia Rena
Was Born
Mandy
Jan. 30, 2003
Tammy Renee Smith
Became An Angel
Debra B.
Jan. 30, 2004
Baylee Michelle Heblon
Was Born
Dana M.
Jan. 30, 2005
Chantell Ericka Buckner
Became An Angel
Bridgette B-G.
Jan. 30, 2007
Amanda Wehn
Became An Angel
Michelle W
Jan. 31, 1979
William Hamilton Proctor "Bill"
Was Born
Diana Y.
Jan. 31, 1986
Steven E. Blackwell
Was Born
Kathy K.
Jan. 31, 2001
Cheyenne
Became An Angel
Vicki
Jan. 31, 2003
Olivia Rena
Became An Angel
Mandy
Jan. 31, 2003
Kiera Makayla Glassbrook
Was Born
Seana G.
Jan. 31, 2006
Sarada Hinton
Became An Angel
Cynthia H.






This month's Featured Mom is Amy Hysell

Hi, I'm Amy Hysell. I am honored to be the January Featured Angel Mom, because Angel Moms has helped me so much in my grief journey.

I am a pediatric nurse. I love working with and being with children of all ages. My husband, John, and I wanted to start a family soon after we were married. Well, we quickly learned that I had serious fertility problems, and would need to take fertility drugs. Later, I learned that I have an incompetent cervix, which would make it difficult to maintain the pregnancies once I did conceive. (These are the reasons that I lost Julie and Amanda in utero). Although I was heartbroken at losing "my girls," eventually I felt blessed to have 3 healthy children.

In June 2003, Bob had just completed his freshman year at Villanova University. Kristen was a sophomore in high school. Daniel was 8 years old. At 10pm on a beautiful star-lit night, two policeman were at our door. There had been a serious car accident, and Bob had been air-lifted to the nearest trauma center. He was in a coma. (I could tell by the policemen's eyes that there was not much hope).

Bob is named after his grandpa, who died the week after John and I were married. When it was clear that he was not going to survive these injuries, I leaned over the hospital bed and said, "Bob, if you need to go, it's OK. Grandpa Bob is there waiting for you. I love you." Shortly after that, he died. He had survived 23 hours. He had never re-gained consciousness.

My family has reached out to the 6 teenage boys who caused the accident. I feel that it is very important for the boys' emotional healing. They made very poor choices that night, but they are remorseful. They never meant to hurt Bob. Every year since Bob's death, on June 25, around 10pm, they bring Kristen and I red roses...





To Those Whom I Love and Those Who Love Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that I have had so many years

I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness
I think you for the love each have shown
But now it is time I traveled on alone

So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memoriss in your heart

I will not be far away, for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can not see or touch me, I will be near
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear
All of my love around you soft and clear

Then, when you must come this way alone
I will greet you with a smile and a "Welcome Home"

Mary Alice Ramish





New year

2008 is here now and this year it will be 7 years since my daughter Tiffany passed, it seems so long ago but then again it seems like yesterday since I saw my sweet daughter. While everyone celebrates the New Year us grieving Moms think about another year without our kids. I worry about each passing year that I will forget something about her. Her smile, her laugh, her cute little teenage things she use to do. 7 years sounds like a long time unless you have lost a child, I know time keeps ticking but when I lost Tiffany time stopped and the world stopped turning the way it use to. In this 7 years the pain is still here but I have learned to live with the pain. My heart still aches for Tiffany and always will. Do know that you do learn to smile again and one day laugh again but you will always carry your child in your heart. My strength is knowing I will see my sweet daughter again one day and until then I will try to enjoy life as much as I can and enjoy the family I have left here with me. I know that is what Tiffany would want for me. I hold on to my precious memories of Tiffany close. My prayers are with all of you Angel Moms in this New Year, I know this long road of grief is very hard. I am so glad that we have this wonderful Angel Mom group, we can hold each others hand and walk down this road together. We will never be alone here.





When I lost Shane, a friend who had lost a son years before helped me though some of the hardest times in my life. Janelle was there for me every step of the way, when I wanted to give up, she wouldn't let me, she pushed me when I needed to be pushed, she let me cry and held me while did. She never lied to me, she told me that I would always hurt and I would always miss Shane, I would never get over losing him. But that I would survive and that I would smile and laugh again. She was there for me holding my hand every step of the way, without her, I don't know what I would have done, I don't know how I would have made it. She remembered the special dates when others didn't. I have always been grateful for every thing Janelle has done for me and for walking this journey with me. We have been there for each other so many times over the years and even after she moved out of state, we stayed close. Then on December 18, 2007, Janelle lost another child, her daughter Katina was killed in a car accident. This time it was me holding her and comforting her, I was telling her the same things she had told me years ago, my heart broke for her just as her's did for me when I lost Shane. I held her up as she looked at her daughter or the last time, I made sure she ate, I held her as she cried, I told her she would survive, just as she did for me and that I would be here for her, just as she was for me. I have always wanted to repay Janelle for all she had done for me, but not this way..........

My friend I know you are hurting so bad
I wish I could take your pain away
But we both know I can not
I will be here to help you make it through each day

I will hold you as you cry
And I'll wipe your away your tears
I'll be strong when you are weak
I'll share your heartache and your fears

I will listen when you need to talk
I will be here for you when others have gone
I will be by your side every step of the way
My friend you will never be alone

I'll share your precious memories
I'll be here to help you learn to smile again
I'll be your courage and strength
Together we will get through this my friend

Years ago you guided me down this same road
You have been there for me through the years
We'll walk this road together side by side
We'll share the memories, the pain and the tears

It's hard to see you hurting like this
It's hard not being able to fix this for you
The way will be hard and will be long
But together we will make it through

Go ahead cry, yell and scream
Life can hurt and be so unfair
Even though I can't change what has happened
I love you, I am here for you and I care

So lean on me my friend
Let me help carry you through
You did the same for me years ago
Now it's my turn to do it for you

Judi Walker
To My Friend Janelle
In Loving Memory of her daughter
Katina Renee' Chenevert LeRay
Oct. 8, 1972~Dec. 18, 2007

Please visit Katina's web site and leave Janelle a message. Thank you so much.

Katina's Page





It’s so hard to believe that another year has gone by so quickly. Another year of grieving, and another year of healing. January 7th will mark three years since by precious baby Zackary earned his little angel wings. Memories of that horrible morning in the NICU are still so vivid for me, and come more often this time of year, even though I try so hard to shut them out. I know of two other families who had boys born with Down Syndrome at the same time Zackary was – one actually on the same day. He was in the NICU the same time as Zackary, and his mother and I became good friends while we were there. I recently received a Christmas card from her, with a photo of her family, and the beautiful little boy, now three, who I know would have been one of Zackary best friends. The other little boy was born about a month before Zackary, to a co-worker of my husband, and I see him occasionally when the company has a family function. Seeing these two special boys brings tears, of course, because I see Zackary in them. It also brings a little smile, because these boys are so beautiful, and so joyful, as most Downy children are. So I prepare to face another year without my little ray of sunshine. But the pain is a little less sharp (only a little), and I feel that I just might make it.

I wish you all much peace, and many blessings in the new year.

Krista, Angel Zackary’s Mom





Was it just me or was Christmas 2007 a particularly tough holiday for many of us? So many posts shared the same emotions. “I can’t wait until the holidays are over”, “I just want to sleep right through Christmas”, “I don’t feel like celebrating”. Since many, if not all of us, had a rough time making it to 2008, I wanted to share the following article that may help with the healing process: That's right- it's the new year again, and with it comes much emotion for everyone. For those who grieve, the New Year brings a whole new set of emotions that don't always bring hope for the future or warm fuzzy new beginnings. For the grieving, it usually involves a whole lot of "Ohhhhh, another year of pain and missing the one I love that is not here anymore".

What many people who grieve do not know is that this year CAN be different. This COULD be the year that we can feel renewal and new hope for the future. Our emotions are based on our views and perceptions. Our inner vocabulary rules the way in which we feel from day to day, and whether or not we heal from grief. This may sound overly simplistic, but it is absolutely true. If we use words such as devastated, destroyed, or tragic, then we surely will see our situation as such. If we tend to see things in general as negative, we will have more difficulty in moving forward out of grief.

If we are able to let go for a moment and try a new approach, we may find it possible to begin healing.

It is as simple as this; When I wake up in the morning, I do not allow myself to think, "Oh, not another day in hell I am living without my daughter". I wake up and I think, "Thank you (higher power) for this sunrise, for my beautiful boys, for this incredible man who loves me, for my loving home, for my ability to love, and to laugh hysterically." I also keep in mind the fabulous gifts that have come as a result of the tragedies in my past. I am not a pro at it, and it doesn't work every time. I still have my moments, but they are just that - moments - not days, weeks, months or years.

Being positive and changing our inner vocabulary takes practice, but it is possible.

The question to ask yourself is this- and it must be answered honestly; "Am I truly ready to begin healing, and am I ready to do whatever it takes?" If you can answer "Yes" to this question, maybe you are ready to take the next step.

I wish everyone a peaceful, healthy New Year.





2008 I love the holidays and I hate the holidays. I am emotionally exhausted and exhilarated at the same time, but I am always relieved to see them end. I was finding myself in a funk. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year’s and then Mike’s birthday on January 3rd. More than a triple play! Despite the great things and the not so great things that have happened this year (Chris was in a car accident and Chris graduated from college, Matt’s $2,000 road bike was stolen 4 days before Christmas, out of our garage, but no one was hurt), I have been wallowing - again! There is no one that can elevate my mood, but me, however my number 3 son, Chris, was Christmas spirit this year. He spent too much money. He bought his youngest brother, Matt, a PS3. I told him that it was too expensive, but he told me that he had done the work, saved his money, shopped for the item, and therefore he wanted the glory. He did not put that gift under the tree Christmas Eve, he revealed as we entered the church for midnight mass. He explained that the best part of giving a gift was seeing the look on the recipient’s face. He went on to explain that he had been practicing that look for when he saw his BMW in the driveway. I had to laugh! How would Santa be able to get a BMW in his sleigh?

He reminded me of a time of innocence when he asked if I could remember when effort counted. He said that he could remember getting an E in Effort when he was in elementary school. My wallowing has left me insensitive to the rest of my families’ pain. I would not have given myself an E for Effort as of late. My husband and I were sitting in the den yesterday, watching a sporting event on television. I looked over at my husband, who was unusually quiet. He was red-faced and trying not to let tears flow. I knew that he was suffering too and maybe my own grief had allowed me to ignore my best friend and the love of my life.

Don’t forget that everyone grieves differently and that you need all of your friends and family to help you and they in turn need you. Don’t forget that it is important to try to get an “E” for effort, even if you can’t get it every day. I forgot that, but I am going to try to focus on everyday. Just because you don’t feel strong, doesn’t make you weak, but you have to put in some effort.

May everyone have a healthy and happy New Year!





Diana's Memory Lane

Through sharing our memories
It keeps our children alive.
With each special moment remembered
They help us to survive.
As we walk down memory lane,
We always keep them near.
For they are the ones we will never forget.
The ones that we hold so dear.

Written by:Zana Maxwell-AngelMom to Alex

alexchristopher.memory-of.com

Well the holidays have finally ended for all of us. But to a Angel Mom the only thing that really ended for us was the loss of our child/children. But I hope this section of our newsletter will help all of us to remember our Angels and to share them. This month Janice Gilmore has shared a memory of her Angel Kevin.

One beautiful fall morning...about a year before Kevin's accident...Kevin and I decided to have a Mother/Son breakfast. We drove out on Kitsap Peninsula from Gig Harbor, and discovered a little lake with just a small collection of homes and a single cottage where they served breakfast with homemade muffins. We sat close to the window and watched the sun reflected through bare branches on a lake. We both ordered bacon, eggs, hashbrowns, and hot muffins.

Kevin had been working hard getting my little house ready to sell and it was time he focused on his own home and marriage. We talked about the future and he asked that I always try to remember his step-daughter Ashley since in focusing on the drama of her older sister, Ashley seemed to be invisible. I had decided to remarry Kevin's father and move to California and Kevin wanted to know why I was waiting to move since he didn't think it would be OK to stay with him after my home sold...so I ended up staying on an old sailboat for a few months before I moved.

After breakfast Kevin and I walked across the street to a shop where a wood-cutter carved owls, beavers, bears, and whales out of old logs. I purchased a beaver to set at the entrance to my driveway. There were also oil paintings and prints of hummingbirds and roses on the wall. I chose a print with 4 BlueJays sitting on a branch and to this day still have it on my wall.

Kevin purchased an oil rose for his wife and vowed he would bring her to this lovely place himself some time soon.

When I was packing up to move and get remarried I asked Kevin if he would like that BlueJay Print. "Why don't you keep it Mom," he said, "To remember a time you were happy." I had no idea that day that I might need a reminder to be happy. Right after Kevin died, my sister-in-law gave me a plate with two children playing in the snow with a bird sitting in a branch. On the plate is written, "The time to be happy is now." So even though Kevin has passed to the next world, I am still being reminded that there is a reason I am alive.

Even though Kevin has become an angel he still reminds me of this last time we had breakfast together...I remember every time I see those four baby BlueJays staring back at me from the print on the wall. I need to remember that even after losing Kevin we are meant to be "happy, joyful,and free."

Please send Memory to dianaandharold@bellsouth.net

Thanks Diana





Ivy Bowl Potpourri Candle Lamp



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Acts Of Kindness




The Act Of Kindness Award will be given to an AngelMom that was nominated for their kindness and thoughtfulness. It will not be a contest, it is "Thank You" kind of award. Anyone can be nominated. If someone has touched your heart by doing something special, please nominate them by emailing Loni. There is no exclusions, everyone is included. We will list each member that has received an Award.

Acts of Kindness for the month of December were presend to
Bambi Oshel by Diane Mathis
Lyn by Brooke

Angel Mom's Acts of Kindness



Coping with the death of a child

You can survive the loss of a child, given the support and motivation, as long as you find a coping mechanism that works for you.

The loss of a child is something no parent ever thinks can happen to them. The normal flow of things is that you are born, you grow up, get married and have children. You then watch your children go through all these experiences and wait for grandchildren. The circle of life is not supposed to end with a child dying.

According to Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, there are five stages one goes through after death touches their life: 1)Denial and isolation, 2) Anger, 3) Bargaining, 4)Depression, and 5) Acceptance. After experiencing the loss of a child, you go through the same range of emotions you go through at the loss of a friend, or grandparent. But there is a difference, too.

A parent's job is to see to their children; look after them and meet all their needs. It is not in the normal course of things to be seeing to your child's burial. After a child dies a parent can settle into a deep depression brought on by guilt. It doesn't matter that in most cases there was nothing at all that the parent could have done to save their child; if your child dies you will feel pangs of guilt. It's normal, and some even say it's expected. It's something you have to get through in your own time and in your own way.

When it comes to death everyone has their own way of dealing/coping.

When your child dies it's not something you ever get over, or get past. A parent deals with this every single day of their life. It doesn't get any better, and the pain never goes away, however, the parent will learn to live with these feelings on a day to day basis, given time and support.

Every morning when you wake up it hits you like a brick to the head. Your child is not going to face the day with you. So how will motivate you to get up and get out of bed?

Some parents have other children that need to be tended too. That's can be a blessing and a course. One one hand you are so thankful for the reason to get out of bed each day and for having something to occupy so much of your time and thoughts. It can be a curse if you end up being resentful that one child was able to live and the other was not. While it may not be a pleasant thought, it does happen. In cases like this counseling should be sought out.

Support groups can be a life saver for those parents who are not getting support from friends or family. Support groups can be found through churches or hospitals. Our former Surgeon General, Dr. Koop, has a web page that has a chat room and a bulletin board for bereaved parents; www.drkoop.com.

The Internet is a great resource for the bereaved parent. AOL has message boards for bereaved parents, as well as chat rooms. You can do searches in the member database for other parents experiencing the same feelings.

Talking about your angel cannot only help you deal with your pain and sadness but it can be helpful to others who are going through the same thing, or know someone who has. Talking about your child also helps to keep her alive in your heart.

Don't be afraid to talk about her as much, or as little as you need to. It is your grief to handle in whichever way works for you. Those around you may be uncomfortable with the topic, and may not know what to say, or say all the wrong things. The important thing right now is you and how you are feeling and helping you to get through the time as best as you can.

Creating remembrances is a way to keep your child's memories alive as well as keeping them a part of the family, depending on where you place it. At framing or craft stores you can buy shadow boxes. These shadow boxes can be filled with trinkets, photographs or other items that will spark happy memories of your child. An attractive container can be used to hold items that you want to keep near you and still be able to touch them, hold them next to you, inhale the scents that invoke the memories.

Often times parents take the extremes when it comes to parenting after the loss of a child. The extremes being getting pregnant right away again, or making the decision never to have another child. It's not that they are attempting to replace the child, although that's what others sometimes think. What they are doing is trying to fill a void in their hearts and lives. You can never replace one child with another. A parent who has lost a child has all this love and energy that they don't know what to do with.

Whichever route a parent choses to travel in order to become motivated to get up and get out of bed each morning, it's important that they have the love and support of those around them. That can make all the difference in the world.





Fiesta Pasta

2 cups rotini pasta, uncooked
1 Tbsp. oil
1 lb. boneless skinless chicken breasts, cut into bite-size pieces
2 cups chopped red peppers
1/4 cup KRAFT Zesty Italian Dressing
1 Tbsp. chili powder
1/2 cup Salsa
1/2 cup Sour Cream
1/2 cup Shredded Cheddar Cheese

COOK pasta as directed on package.

MEANWHILE, heat oil in large skillet on medium-high heat. Add chicken. Cook and stir 6 min. Add peppers, dressing and chili powder; cook 3 min. or until chicken is cooked through, stirring frequently. Stir in salsa and sour cream. (I add the salsa earlier with the dressing for more flavor. Also, if you're meat is already cooken, then add the meat and veggies at the same time)





Ladies, this section is for you. Anything you wish to share can be put here.





Some Links To Share

I Am Not Gone
To My Dearest One On Earth
Welcome To Heaven





What we have once enjoyed we can never lose;
All that we love deeply, becomes a part of us.
~Helen Keller~




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