Date
Name
On This Date
Mom/E-mail
April 1, 1963
Mitchell Camron Shubert
Was Born
Ann S.
April 1, 1978
Nathan Goldsberry
Was Born
Deb G.
April 1, 2001
Mary Elizabeth Cole
Became An Angel
Theresa C.
April 1, 2002
Scott Chapman
Became An Angel
Debbie C.
April 1, 2004
Baby Mhamdi
Was Born An Angel
Regina M.
April 1, 2005
Daniel Jose Tovar Dias
Became An Angel
Maria T. D.
April 2, 1980
Rex Daniel "Danny" Judd
Was Born
Beth J.
April 2, 1981
Peter Hewett
Was Born
Lisa D.
April 2, 1996
Jordan Kirstiana Smith
Was Born
Erica S.
April 2, 1998
Michael Morris
Became An Angel
Janice M.
April 2, 1998
Patrick Theodore Latos
Became An Angel
Michelle L.
April 2, 2001
Christyna Wadkins
Became An Angel
Karen
April 2, 2001
Dennis Matthew Walsh
Became An Angel
Patsy W.
April 2, 2003
Christina Nicole Slack
Was Born
Doddie S.
April 2, 2004
Jordan
Was Born An Angel
Jenni A.
April 2, 2005
Colin Daniel Johnston
Became An Angel
Pamela J.
April 3, 1985
Monique Ozbardakci
Was Born
Veronica O.
April 3, 1992
Krista Petroski
Became An Angel
Shirley P.
April 3, 1993
Nicholas Michael
Became An Angel
Linda M.
April 3, 2001
Robert J. Pratt "Bobby"
Became An Angel
Mauriann J.
April 3, 2003
Rachelann Soliz
Became An Angel
Annamarie J.
April 3, 2004
Adam Michael Thimyan
Became An Angel
Deborah D.
April 4, 1977
Amanda Jayne Eke
Was Born
Jacquie M.
April 4, 1979
Patrick Theodore Latos
Was Born
Michelle L.
April 4, 1980
Thomas Upton
Was Born
Margie P.
April 4, 1987
Zachary Paul Ogilvie
Was Born
Marcie O.
April 4, 1989
Andrew Hilton
Was Born
Kathleen
April 4, 1989
Andrew Hilton
Became An Angel
Kathleen
April 4, 1998
Jessica
Became An Angel
Janai
April 4, 2003
Paul Shane Brough
Became An Angel
Theresa B.
April 4, 2004
Jonathon Donald Barrick
Was Born An Angel
Racheal B.
April 4, 2004
August Ryan Casares
Was Born
Tanya C.
April 4, 2006
Matthew Sandon Sonnenberg Klein
Became An Angel
Julie S-K.
April 5, 1967
Dennis Matthew Walsh
Was Born
Patsy W.
April 5, 1975
Timothy Parker
Was Born
Pat P.
April 5, 1993
Reggie
Was Born
Liz B.
April 5, 1998
Christin Cosby
Became An Angel
Lulie C.
April 5, 2001
Damon
Became An Angel
Belinda
April 5, 2001
Shawn Wade Thomason
Became An Angel
Charlane Z.
April 5, 2004
Matthew
Became an Angel
Kathy Z.
April 6, 1994
Christopher Dewayne Goodwin
Became An Angel
Mary G.
April 6, 2004
Emalee Bruno
Was Born An Angel
Jeri A.
April 6, 2005
Elijah Logan Merritt
Was Born An Angel
Jennifer M.
April 7, 2003
Eric Barlament
Became An Angel
Penny M.
April 7, 2004
Noah Joseph Allison
Was Born
Becky A.
April 7, 2004
Gregory Thorowgood
Became An Angel
Margie G.
April 7, 2005
McKayla Turner
Was Born
Jacquelyne T.
April 7, 2006
Anjelique Camille Augustin
Became An Angel
Elizabeth A.
April 8, 1982
Andrew J. Boyd "A.J."
Was Born
Lynne W.
April 8, 1983
Joey Taylor
Was Born
Leslie T.
April 8, 1991
Jessica Marie Vieau
Became An Angel
Cheryl V.
April 8, 1994
Faustino Medina
Was Born
Jennifer M.
April 8, 2001
Autumn Rae' Kirby
Became An Angel
Michelle K.
April 8, 2002
Matthew James Abrams
Became An Angel
Jane A.
April 8, 2002
Daniel Duane Rose
Became An Angel
Dorothy R.
April 8, 2004
Ross Theoden Piche
Became An Angel
Kimberly P.
April 8, 2005
Nathaniel J. Etter
Became An Angel
JoAnne E.
April 8, 2005
Tyler
Became An Angel
Brenda R.
April 8, 2006
Georgie Alexandra Hesser
Became An Angel
Patricia H.
April 8, 2007
Mustafa Stewart
Became An Angel
Nikki A.
April 9, 1976
Marla Rayanne Ellis
Was Born
Patricia E.
April 9, 1984
Tyler McAdam
Was Born
Kathy M.
April 9, 1998
Kira Lynette Reddick
Was Born
Angela R.
April 9, 2001
Jordan Burton
Became An Angel
Charn B.
April 9, 2003
Jessica "Jessie" Cannoy
Became An Angel
Missy W.
April 9, 2004
Jacob Reuben Gentle
Was Born An Angel
Sarah Jane G.
April 9, 2005
Aryton
Became An Angel
Ashlie
April 10, 1969
Duvien Heyne
Became An Angel
Dolly H.
April 10, 1972
April Michelle Abilez
Was Born
Judy A.
April 10, 1987
Gregory Allen Lewis
Was Born
Michelle L.
April 10, 1999
Robert Thomas Ching "Bobby"
Became An Angel
Linda M.
April 10, 2002
Georgina "Georgie" Elizabeth Rosina
Became An Angel
Nicki W.
April 10, 2003
Kaley Elizabeth
Was Born
Bridgit
April 10, 2003
William C.
Became An Angel
Denise B.
April 10, 2004
Keyaera Anne Hughey
Was Born
Trina A.
April 10, 2005
Michael-Morrison Walter O'Shea
Was Born An Angel
Sarah O.
April 10, 2005
Travis Luman Ney
Became An Angel
Kaye N.
April 10, 2005
Scott Jr.
Was Born An Angel
Stefanie
April 10, 2006
William C. Barraza
Was Born
Denise B.
April 11, 1984
Derek Alan Herman
Was Born
Kathy H.
April 11, 1986
Andrew Dicuffa "A.J."
Was Born
Valerie D.
April 11, 1991
Chris
Became An Angel
Carol H.
April 11, 1997
Samantha Rose
Was Born
Laura S.
April 11, 2000
Jason Porter
Became An Angel
Claudette P.
April 11, 2001
Alex Charles Walker
Was Born
Katherine
April 11, 2002
Andrew J. Boyd "A.J."
Became An Angel
Lynne W.
April 11, 2002
Jaiden Nikole
Became An Angel
Carlie F.
April 11, 2006
Baby Hansen
Was Born An Angel
Raeannon H.
April 12, 1973
Brian Parker
Was Born
Pat P.
April 12, 1984
Joshua Zeiber
Was Born
Denise S.
April 12, 2000
Brooklyn Nicole Johnson
Was Born An Angel
Jennifer J.
April 12, 2001
Alex Charles Walker
Became An Angel
Katherine
April 12, 2001
Gabrielle "Chickie" Loman
Became An Angel
Michele
April 12, 2004
Brian Krol
Became An Angel
Audrey B.
April 12, 2005
Emily Kobelt
Was Born
Nicole M.
April 12, 2005
Joshua Aaron McLaughlin
Became An Angel
Charity M.
April 13, 1977
Jamie Martinez
Was Born
Naomi G.
April 13, 1978
Christin Cosby
Was Born
Lulie C.
April 13, 1984
Jamye Cox
Was Born
Shelia H.
April 13, 1988
Jacob Charles Clymo
Was Born
Beckie C.
April 13, 1993
Christina McReynolds
Was Born
Lori M.
April 13, 1996
Amy Rose Fithen
Became An Angel
Shirley F.
April 13, 1998
Peter Hewett
Became An Angel
Lisa D.
April 13, 1999
Brianna Dingee
Was Born An Angel
Lucille D.
April 13, 1999
Vanessa Jane
Became An Angel
Andrea
April 13, 2000
Jordan Kirstiana Smith
Became An Angel
Erica S.
Aug. 13, 2002
Nicholas William Lopez
Became An Angel
Jill C.
April 13, 2004
Michelle Mazzagatti
Became An Angel
Connie K.
April 14, 1981
April
Was Born
Alice
April 14, 1987
Kira Kenady
Was Born
Bobbette E.
April 14, 1993
John
Was Born
Amanda D.
April 14, 1995
Jared Matthew Kelly
Was Born
Jennifer Q.
April 14, 2003
Taylor Sullivan
Was Born
Debbie S.
April 14, 2004
Cariana Gonzales
Became An Angel
Janis G.
April 14, 2006
Gary Powe
Became An Angel
Dorothy C.
April 15, 1989
Emily Jayne McDowell
Was Born
Rachel M.
April 15, 1995
Steven Ford White
Became An Angel
Gail W.
April 15, 1999
Kristen Vance
Was Born
Jaclyn
April 15, 2000
Michaela Roxzan Preston
Became An Angel
Angela P.
April 15, 2004
Ethan Paul Miller
Was Born
Mary M.
April 15, 2007
Daniel Ezell
Decame An Angel
Donna E.
April 16, 1994
David Lucas Martin
Was Born
Sheri M.
April 16, 1996
Kelsey Olgers
Became An Angel
Amy O.
April 16, 2000
Richard Smith
Became An Angel
Ellie
April 16, 2000
Brian J. Sedlock
Became An Angel
JoLena M.
April 16, 2003
Madison Raelynn
Was Born
Rox Ann
April 16, 2003
Madison Raelynn
Became An Angel
Rox Ann
April 16, 2003
Baby Felipe
Was Born An Angel
Rachel L.
April 16, 2005
Austin Gains
Became An Angel
Pam F.
April 16, 2007
Joseph Emery
Became An Angel
Stephanie E.
April 17, 1973
Jason Troller
Was Born
Mary S.
April 17, 1977
Vydell Yellowrobe
Was Born
Rhoda G.
April 17, 1978
Christina Hawkins
Was Born
Rebecca R.
April 17, 1985
Nathan Edward
Was Born
Tina S.
April 17, 1997
Rossy
Was Born
Leslee G.
April 17, 1999
Paul
Became An Angel
Cathie
April 17, 1999
Marcella Harvell
Became An Angel
Ruth C.
April 17, 2000
Rebecca Lynn Bowen
Was Born An Angel
Alissa W.
April 17, 2001
Emil Servé Gårde
Was Born
Birgit R.
April 17, 2003
Cpl. Travis Rivero
Became An Angel
Pattie G.
April 17, 2003
Elijah Daniel Gregory Foster
Was Born
Jessica F.
April 17, 2004
Keyaera Anne Hughey
Became An Angel
Trina A.
April 17, 2004
Jonathan "JT" Thomas Tullos
Became An Angel
Lorie T.
April 17, 2005
Michelle Marie Pierson
Became An Angel
Lisa T.
April 17, 2006
Dakota Riley Vickers
Became An Angel
Crystal V.
April 17, 2007
Katilyn Preston
Became An Angel
Kathy P.
April 18, 1985
Caitlin Ann "Katy" Flynn
Was Born
Millie F.
April 18, 1989
Sinead Jarvis
Was Born An Angel
Moya S.
April 18, 1989
Heather Nicole "Nikki" Weed
Was Born
Connie J.
April 18, 1992
Jason Holden
Became An Angel
Dottie M.
April 18, 1997
Shelby Wyatt
Became An Angel
Christy
April 18, 2000
Joshua
Was Born An Angel
Jennifer S.
April 18, 2000
Gregory Castro
Was Born An Angel
Heather B.
April 18, 2000
Joshua
Was Born An Angel
Lynn
April 18, 2002
Jakob Nelson Andriacchi
Became An Angel
Jennifer A.
April 18, 2002
Torique Fasil
Was Born
Yana I.
April 18, 2005
Kyla Renee Glass
Was Born
Elizabeth S.
April 18, 2005
Kyla Renee Glass
Became An Angel
Elizabeth S.
April 18, 2004
Nicole Jimenez
Became An Angel
Lorrie D.
April 18, 2006
Hayden Taylor
Became An Angel
Tabitha T.
April 19, 1999
Beth Carr
Became An Angel
Cindy C.
April 19, 1998
Kailey Ann
Became An Angel
Heather
April 19, 2000
Lewis
Was Born An Angel
Connie
April 19, 2001
Andrea Rae Jenkins "Andi Rae"
Became An Angel
Sheila J.
April 19, 2002
Melissa Noelle Hanson
Became An Angel
Loni W.
April 19, 2004
Melissa Ann
Became An Angel
Dotty S.
April 19, 2004
Noah Joseph Allison
Became An Angel
Becky A.
April 19, 2005
Emily Kobelt
Became An Angel
Nicole M.
April 19, 2005
Joshua Matthew Pastorius
Was Born
Hilary P.
April 19, 2007
Baby Angel
Was Born An Angel
Bethany H.
April 19, 2007
Joshua Zeiber
Became An Angel
Denise S.
April 20, 1994
Emily
Was Born
Rene
April 20, 1996
Alex
Was Born
Sue
April 20, 1999
Brook Joianna Rose Campbell
Became An Angel
Zina C.
April 20, 2003
Matthew
Became An Angel
Theresa W.
April 20, 2005
Joseph James McKittrick IV "Joey"
Was Born
Melissa
April 20, 2005
Robert Chittenden
Became An Angel
Donna C.
April 20, 2006
Isabella O.
Was Born
Erin O.
April 21, 1977
Solomon Lee Bellinger
Was Born
Sherri B
April 21, 1978
David Hall
Was Born
Ann
April 21, 1980
Angela Marie
Was Born
Elizabeth
April 21, 1995
Keith Laurence Zeliger II
Was Born
Linda Z.
April 21, 2001
Tyler Cunningham
Became An Angel
Kathleen C. "Charlie"
April 21, 2001
Logan Zackary Reed
Was Born
Beverly K.
April 21, 2006
Frank Brideson
Became An Angel
Maria N.
April 22, 1981
Brian Schlittler
Was Born
Linda S.
April 22, 1998
Travis Farrington
Became An Angel
Jane T.
April 22, 1999
Joshua Lionel Caleb Rostek
Was Born
Miriam R.
April 22, 2003
Drew Curtis Sloan
Was Born
Debra S.
April 22, 2004
Katie
Became An Angel
Lisa P.
April 22, 2005
Daniel Amado Diaz III
Became An Angel
Sherry S.
April 22, 2005
Joshua Matthew Pastorius
Became An Angel
Hilary P.
April 22, 2006
Robert Ater
Became An Angel
Autumn A.
April 23, 1973
Robert Michael Burton
Was Born
Jaynee M.
April 22, 2007
Ricky Young-White
Became An Angel
Kathy Y.
April 23, 1992
Stanley Maestas
Became An Angel
Florence M.
April 23, 1993
Andrew Wanhala
Became An Angel
Pamela W.
April 23, 1999
Jason Linkins
Became An Angel
Dianna B.
April 23, 1999
Samantha Harmse
Was Born
Marcelle H.
April 23, 2000
Ryan
Was Born
Debbie M.
April 23, 2001
Jordan Eva
Became An Angel
Yvette B.
April 23, 2001
Jeremiah Joseph Phillips "J.J."
Was Born An Angel
Debra P.
April 23, 2002
Koby Smith
Was Born
Sharron S.
April 23, 2004
Unknown Angel
Was Born An Angel
Cindy
April 23, 2005
Taylor McDade
Became An Angel
Grandmother-Melanie H.
April 23, 2004
Saylor DiAnn
Was Born
Amanda T.
April 23, 2005
Jay Callen
Became An Angel
Sandy C.
April 24, 1994
Tyler
Was Born An Angel
Karen
April 24, 1995
Garion Tyler Hight
Was Born
Lynda H.
April 24, 1998
Ashley Nicole McKinley
Was Born
Cindy M.
April 24, 2001
David Bloom
Became An Angel
Charron B.
April 24, 2006
Alyssa Leighann Widmyer "Tweety"
Became An Angel
Jill W.
April 25, 1980
Kate Johnson
Was Born
Edie
April 25, 1986
Micah Maddox
Was Born
Michelle M.
April 25, 1995
Jared Matthew Kelly
Was Born
Jennifer Q.
April 25, 1996
Clyde Hawes
Was Born
Shelly L.
April 25, 2001
Nathan Solomon
Became An Angel
Martha S.
April 25, 2002
Ella Hannah Rose Greenesboro
Was Born
April G.
April 25, 2003
Layla Jill Rouineb
Became An Angel
Jackie R.
April 25, 2003
Erica Danielle Barreras
Became An Angel
Scarlot B.
April 25, 2004
Nichols
Became An Angel
Bron W.
April 25, 2005
Ashley Kate
Became An Angel
Elizabeth B.
April 26, 1966
Sgt. Barry Bassett
Was Born
Carole S.
April 26, 1978
David
Was Born
Ginny S.
April 26, 1979
Jesus Gutierrez Jr.
Was Born
Marilyn G.
April 26, 1981
Michael Brent
Was Born
Elizabeth
April 26, 1983
Eric
Was Born
Cindy C.
April 26, 1984
Katie
Was Born
Vicki R.
April 26, 1984
Shawn Michael Walton
Was Born
Debbie W.
April 26, 2000
Travon Christopher Green
Was Born
Sheri H.
April 26, 2002
Nathan Garret Catalano
Was Born An Angel
Trudie A.
April 27, 1987
Andrew
Was Born
Tami B.
April 27, 1991
John Charles Paterson, Jr. "Johnny/Scooter"
Was Born
Traci P.
April 27, 1992
Sofia
Was Born
Molly B.
April 27, 2005
Zachary Odle
Was Born
Cathy O.
April 28, 1977
William Harvey "Beau" Cox, II
Was Born
Beverly C.
April 28, 1980
Amanda Susan Theirer
Was Born
Sara T.
April 28, 1986
Andy Canterbury
Was Born
Dee C.
April 28, 1992
Tracy Lyn Sartin
Became An Angel
Mary B.
April 28, 2001
Nathan Edward
Becam An Angel
Tina S.
April 28, 2001
Scott "Beav" Atteberry
Became An Angel
Brenda
April 28, 2002
Robert "Bubba" Dean Tatum
Became An Angel
Linda T.
April 28, 2006
Joseph
Was Born
Leah R.
April 28, 2006
Joseph
Became An Angel
Leah R.
April 28, 2006
Nicholas Alexander & Charles Andrew Cross
Were Born
Andrea C.
April 29, 1978
Michael Lee Schilling
Became An Angel
Julie C.
April 29, 1983
Darien Wilson
Was Born
Sidney W.
April 29, 1986
Jonathan "JT" Thomas Tullos
Was Born
Lorie T.
April 29, 1998
Kevin Lynn Yeck, Jr.
Was Born An Angel
Jennifer Y.
April 29, 2000
Martin
Became An Angel
Alma
April 29, 2000
Scott Andrew
Was Born
Karen
April 29, 2001
Tiffany Wilson
Became An Angel
Holly W.
April 29, 2004
Alexander James Peter (Alex)
Was Born
Heather
April 29, 2004
Ryan Allan "R.J." Gruber, Jr
Was Born
Amanda G.
April 29, 2004
Ryan Allan "R.J." Gruber, Jr
Became An Angel
Amanda G.
April 29, 2005
Merceideiz Anhelique Espinoza
Became An Angel
Maurica E.
April 29, 2006
Nicholas Alexander & Charles Andrew Cross
Became Angels
Andrea C.
April 30, 1966
Tammy Lynn Lucas Allen
Was Born
Jance L.
April 30, 1979
Barry L. Geesy
Was Born
Tina G.
April 30, 1981
Crystal Clark
Was Born
Diane C.
April 30, 1999
Phillip Ross Long
Became An Angel
Andrea L.
April 30, 2001
Justin Fuzzell
Became An Angel
Belinda H.
April. 30, 2005
Mark Martinez
Became An Angel
Robin M.






This month's Featured Mom is Sarina Baptista

Hello! My name is Sarina Baptista and my angel is J.T. I am so honored to be April’s Featured Angel Mom. I have received so much peace, camaraderie and comfort from this group, and am so thankful to be here with all of you.

I am 43 years old, have been married for ten years to a wonderful man, John. We have three children – my angel J.T., forever 7, my princess Lacey who is 6, and my “lightening in a bottle” Anthony who is 4. We live in Loveland, Colorado, a wonderful town that still has that hometown feel and great people!

Our journey began March 30, 2007. J.T. and Lacey both got the flu on the same day, same symptoms. That was Monday, March 26, 2007. Thursday, March 28, 2007, I woke up with food poisoning. I was so sick, I could barely get out of bed. Chills, fever. I did my best to take care of my two sick kids, and keep Anthony away from them, so he wouldn’t get it also. J.T. really wanted me to stay with him in his room, but I was so sick, I couldn’t even sit up in bed. At 11pm Thursday night, my fever broke and I got an unexplainable burst of energy. J.T. said, “Please Mom, I need you.” I stayed with him for the next five hours. Finally, at about 4am, we were laying down in his room. I was just about asleep when he popped up in bed and said, “Mommy!” I was startled. I said, “What? What’s wrong?” He said, “I want you to go to your room.” I said, “Oh, you want to try my room again? OK, let’s go.” He said, “No, I want YOU to go. I want to watch TV.” I was so tired, I didn’t argue and didn’t think twice about how out of character it was for him. He never would have sent me away. At 6am, I got up to check on him. He looked peaceful, until I saw his chest wasn’t moving. And our nightmare began. Despite my CPR efforts, police officers, paramedics, fire fighters, emergency room doctors, he was gone. The official cause of death was complications due to the flu. They believe there was a congenital lung issue, and the flu was too much for his body to overcome.

J.T. loved to laugh. Anyone who knew him would tell you the thing they remembered most about him was either his laugh or his “never give up” attitude. For someone who was on this planet for such a short time, he gave everyone he knew some very special memories and always lots of love.

We’ve been on this journey for a year now. I considered myself one of the lucky ones. For whatever reason, I’ve been able to hold onto J.T.’s joy of life and make it my own. I still miss my boy so very much. Some days, it seems like too much to handle. But then the day ends, and I feel renewed and strong once again.

I owe so much to my husband, who is my rock, my kids, who deserve so much more than to have to grieve their older brother, my friends who are still by my side (not all of them are!), and to my faith that I will be with my precious boy again one day. And, of course, I owe so much to this compassionate group of mothers who have been there for me over this past year, letting me know I’m not crazy, what I feel is real, and that one day, it will get better. We all know it will never leave, but it will get better. Thank you, Angelmoms! You all mean so much to me!

If you would like to read more about J.T., please visit his website at www.mem.com/Story.aspx?ID=1785969





Our Sweet Angel

Our sweet little angel,
Our sweet baby girl.
We anxiously awaited the day,
you would enter the world.

Mommy carried you inside,
keeping you safe and warm.
Trying to shelter you,
From any pain and harm.

We were told you would not make it,
even though your heart was strong.
We didn't want to believe it.
We wanted all the doctors to be wrong.

Although we wished to keep you here,
and give you all our love.
God needed you to be his angel,
and brought you back to heave above.

We will hold you in our hearts.
We will never let you go.
You will always be loved by Mommy and Daddy,
more than you will ever know.

Cara Molloy
In loving memory of her daughter





April

Spring is here and it is beautiful outside all the trees are blooming and the flowers are all blooming to.

Tiffany always loved this time of year she loved all the flowers. We have a big vine of wisteria growing by our house it covers a cedar tree and alot of the other trees around it, it is a beautiful lavender color. We have yellow Jasmine that grows out side to and lots and lots of honey suckle. When you walk outside it smells wonderful. Even though this time of year is so beautiful I am sad because she passed away this month. All the wonderful smells remind me of her and how much she loved this time of year and it makes me even miss her more. I know in Heaven it is beautiful to and I'm sure she is getting to see and smell the flowers there to and I'm sure it is alot more beautiful there than it is here but in my heart I want her here with me to see and smell the flowers. I know there are things I can do this time of year in her memory and one of them is planting a memorial garden in my yard and I do plan on doing that this year. I wish you all a beautiful spring and remember that our children are always with us we may not be able to see them but we can feel them around us and sometimes they send us a little sign just to let us know they are there.







The 13-19 of this month is National Crime Victims' Rights Week. It is a week to honor the victims of crime and remember them. It is also to make people more aware of crime. We see and hear about it every day on the news and read about it in the paper. For some people, they will never be touched by crime, but for others, it will change their lives forever, it did mine.....I am the mother of a murdered child, a title I never dreamed would be mine, a title I never wanted. I had never had to deal with the media, but I learned fast, I had never had to deal with the court system, but I learned that too. I learned that the court system can rip you to pieces, be cruel and unfair. I was naive, I thought if you committed a crime, you paid for it, it's not true. Shane is in a cemetery and his killer walks free. Not only did I have to learn to live with out Shane, I had to learn to live with the injustice of his murder.

Most of the time I don't think of Shane as a homicide victim, he is my son and he is gone, it doesn't matter how......but there are times that I am reminded that he was murdered, that someone held my child's life in his hands, they could choose life or death for him and they chose death.

We went to trial in April of 2000 for Shane's murder, it has been eigh years now. I can still remember how it felt to sit in that courtroom and hear things no parent ever wants to hear. I can still remember hearing the jury foreman read the verdict "Not Guilty." I felt like Shane had been murdered again. For a long time I was bitter and angry, the anger was eating me up and turning me into someone I was not. I realized I had to let it go because by continuing to let it eat me up, I was letting Shane's killer take even more from my family and he had take too much already. It wasn't easy and there are times I still get angry, but it doesn't consume me like it used to.

I had been told to prepare a victim impact statement to be read at the sentencing, a sentencing that never happened, my statement was never read. Below is my statement.

Today, I am at a place I never dreamed I would be, doing something I never dreamed I would do. A victim impact statement was not something in my vocabulary. I have agonized over this, agonized over what to say. How do you put into words what the murder of your firstborn, your only son does to your life and the lives of all those around you.

In the Spring of 1977, I was a teenager, unwed and pregnant. I was faced with a decision, the decision to chose life or death for this baby. I was scared, scared of raising a baby, scared of the responsibility ahead of me, scared of it all. But I chose life for this baby and with the help of my parents and the baby’s father, on December 3, 1977, Shane was born. Almost twenty years later, someone else held Shane’s life in their hands. They had the choice to let him live or die. Adam Carrier chose death for Shane.......

By doing this, he has destroyed so much. Shane was a wonderful young man, not perfect by any means, but someone who enjoyed life, he was a son, father, brother, husband, grandson, great-grandson and a friend to many. He would help anyone he could. Five and a half months before he was murdered, he became a father to twin girls, Krista and Kristen. He loved it and he loved them. He was so proud of his baby girls and though he was young and unprepared, he was turning into a wonderful father and growing up. Not long after the birth of the twins, one day he was talking to me about them, he was trying to describe how he felt. I said it’s like you finally love someone more than you do yourself, he looked at me amazed and said, yes, how did you know? I told him because it was the way I felt the day he was born. Two weeks before he died, Krista said “da-da” for the first time, he was so proud and so happy. He never got to hear Kristen say it, Adam took that away from him. Shane never got to see his daughters take their first steps, share their first Christmas with them, or a birthday, he will never take them to their first day of school, never go to a father daughter dance with them, never be their for them when they have a problem and need him, never get to meet their boyfriends, never walk them down the isle on their wedding day, never be there when they have children of their own and would make him a grandfather. Adam took all of this away from these two little girls............Krista and Kristen don’t remember their Daddy, but they know all about him, we take them to the cemetery and they give him little gifts, pictures, necklaces, toys, cookies, suckers, send him balloons and things like that. They think this is what a Daddy is, a headstone, they call it Daddy’s rock in a cemetery where you take things to. Someday, we will have to explain to them what happened to their Daddy and why he is not here. I dread it, how do you explain to a child that to another person, their daddy’s life meant nothing, had no value, that this person thought they had the right to play God and end it, when they are no better than the devil himself?

I have told you what it has done to the lives of his daughter’s, now I will tell you what it has done to mine. It hurts, it is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I never knew you could feel such pain and live through it. I almost didn’t, I came close to taking my own life on January 17, 1998, thank God I didn’t, that would have let Adam Carrier take more from my family and I will not let him do that. I am stronger now than I was then, but I still hurt, there are times I just want to destroy things and scream with the pain, there are times that I do.......I watch my husband and my daughters hurt and see them wanting to reach out and help me even though they are hurting just as much as I am. I have seen my husband age years before my eyes, I have seen him try and control the anger and rage he has because of what Adam has done, this is coming from a man who before was quiet, controlled and easy going. I have heard the screams and cries in the night from my daughters rooms, hurting, missing their big brother. I have seen their pain and their fear, somebody murdered their brother, that means somebody could murder them, their parents or someone else they love too. Parents are supposed to be able to fix things for their children, I cannot fix this for them or for Shane. I try and take it day by day, I try not to look at the big picture or the future, to see myself living without Shane for the rest of my life is something that is so hard to do.

My heart breaks for myself, my family and Shane’s friends, my heart breaks for a lot of people. One of them is Jan, Adam’s mother, how hard this must be for her. We love our children no matter what, but what has this done to her? This is not her fault, I am sure just like I did with Shane, she loved Adam and raised him the best she could, how could she know this baby, this child she brought into the world with love would grow up to be a cold blooded killer? Nothing Adam can ever do or accomplish the rest of his life can she be proud of the way she was before, Shane’s death will overshadow any accomplishment he could ever possibly make. I know lots of people judge us by the accomplishments and failures of our children. I am asking that no one judge Jan for what Adam has done, she did not make him do this, nothing she did caused him to do this. Adam and Adam alone did this to himself, his family and Shane and his family, Adam chose this path for all of us. He must now take responsibility for what he did and pay the consequences.

Adam gave Shane a death sentence, but that is not what I am here asking for him. I have no more right to ask for life or death for Adam than he did to chose it for Shane. And as a mother who has lost her child, I could not ask for Adam to be put to death, that would be me wishing my pain upon Jan and I would not wish this pain on my worst enemy. I do ask you, your Honor to please give Adam the maximum sentence you can, please give him a life sentence, just like he did the rest of us when he took Shane’s.





Hello dear Angel Mom Sisters! I hope that spring weather has started to arrive where you are – it’s still struggling to show up here in Ohio! It’s always nice to see the tulips and daffodils start to come up. So I have jumped on the Oprah bandwagon and have joined her big on-line “class” involving the book A New Earth by Ekhart Tolle. If you have not heard about it, it book is about trying to find your true self, and in doing do, find your true life’s purpose. Cheesy I know! But it is a very interesting read, and I admit that I have discovered some things about myself and the grief process that I never thought of before. There is a section in chapter 2 about how many people, when they experience great loss, somehow find themselves with a new sense of being, some kind of peace. Looking back, I know that I have had moments of this, but many times it feels hard to come by. Even the author claims that this is “a kind of peace doesn’t seem to make sense, and even the people who experience it ask themselves: In the face of this, how can it be that I feel such peace?”. Personally, I think it takes a lot of work to find that peace. Of course I think it may depend on the circumstances of the loss. For me, my angel Zackary was so sick for such a long time, and I felt after he died that he was now at peace, that he was healthy and whole and in no more pain. Somehow it helped me to accept the fact that he was gone. If your loss happened very unexpectedly, I can imagine that it would take so much longer to find that acceptance. Tolle states “Whenever tragic loss occurs, you either resist or you yield. Some people become bitter or deeply resentful; others become compassionate, wise and loving. Yielding means inner acceptance of what is.”. This really struck me, because I feel that we all are better people because of having had our children with us, no matter how long they were here, and that we are more compassionate toward others because of our loss. It is part of the legacy our children leave behind, and the inner strength that we all carry within us. I send you all many prayers of comfort, strength, and, most of all, peace.







According to my calendar, spring has sprung but my thermometer says otherwise. It’s been a long, cold winter but I have faith that soon the warm weather will arrive, the flowers will bloom and a new season of renewal beings again. April is the month for Arbor Day, a good day to plant a tree in memory of your child. Find their birthday below and read about the tree that corresponds and see if it fits their personality. Maybe it will be the type of tree you would like to plant for them. It is a wonderful way to honor the memory of your angel while helping the environment at the same time. I wish all of my Angel Mom friends a happy and warm spring!

Dec 23 to Jan 01 Apple Tree - Jan 02 to Jan 11 Fir Tree - Jan 12 to Jan 24 Elm Tree - Jan 25 to Feb 03 Cypress Tree - Feb 04 to Feb 08 Poplar Tree - Feb 09 to Feb 18 Cedar Tree - Feb 19 to Feb 28 Pine Tree - Mar 01 to Mar 10 Weeping Willow Tree - Mar 11 to Mar 20 Lime Tree - Mar 21 Oak Tree Mar 22 to Mar 31 Hazelnut Tree - Apr 01 to Apr 10 Rowan Tree - Apr 11 to Apr 20 Maple Tree - Apr 21 to Apr 30  Walnut Tree May 01 to May 14 Poplar Tree May 15 to May 24 Chestnut Tree - May 25 to Jun 03 Ash Tree - Jun 04 to Jun 13 Hornbeam Tree - Jun 14 to Jun 23 Fig Tree - Jun 24 Birch Tree - Jun 25 to Jul 04 Apple Tree - Jul 05 to Jul 14 Fir Tree - Jul 15 to Jul 25 Elm Tree - Jul 26 to Aug 04 Cypress Tree - Aug 05 to Aug 13 Poplar Tree - Aug 14 to Aug 23 Cedar Tree - Aug 24 to Sep 02 Pine Tree - Sep 03 to Sep 12 Weeping Willow Tree - Sep 13 to Sep 22 Lime Tree - Sep 23 Olive Tree - Sep 24 to Oct 03 Hazelnut Tree - Oct 04 to Oct 13 Rowan Tree - Oct 14 to Oct 23 Maple Tree - Oct 24 to Nov 11 Walnut Tree - Nov 12 to Nov 21 Chestnut Tree - Nov 22 to Dec 01 Ash Tree - Dec 02 to Dec 11 Hornbeam Tree - Dec 12 to Dec 21 Fig Tree - Dec 22 Beech Tree

APPLE TREE (the Love) - of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

ASH TREE (the Ambition) - uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be egotistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over the heart, but takes partnership very seriously.

BEECH TREE (the Creative) - has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)

BIRCH TREE (the inspiration) - vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

CEDAR TREE (the Confidence) - of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, likes to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) - of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.

CYPRESS TREE (the Faithfulness) - strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give, content, optimistic, craves money and acknowledgment, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered, unruly, pedantic, and careless.

ELM TREE (the Noble-mindedness) - pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

FIG TREE (the Sensibility) - very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

FIR TREE (the Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious, uncontented lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

HAZELNUT TREE (the Extraordinary) - charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause, popular, moody, and capricious lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgment.

HORNBEAM TREE (the Good Taste) - of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgement in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

LIME TREE (the Doubt) - accepts what life dishes out in a composed way, hates fighting, stress, and labor, dislikes laziness and idleness, soft and relenting, makes sacrifices for friends, many talents but not tenacious enough to make them blossom, often wailing and complaining, very jealous but loyal.

MAPLE TREE (Independence of Mind) - no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress. OAK TREE (the Brave) - robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

OLIVE TREE (the Wisdom) - loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

PINE TREE (the Particular) - loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily, everything disappointments until it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.

POPLAR TREE (the Uncertainty) - looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

ROWAN TREE (the Sensitivity) - full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

WALNUT TREE (the Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.





My Son, Chris

My son, Chris, has grown into manhood. At 24, he has completed his undergraduate degree and is pursuing a master’s. This was the bouncing, and I do mean bouncing child, that pinched his uncle on the behind, pulled ears and caused quite a commotion at times. That curly headed little person, is still alive, but the man he has become surrounds him. Chris and Mike were three years apart and so close. Chris would climb out of bed every night from the time he was two until he was six and climb into bed with Mike. I know Mike loved Chris openly, helping the wonderful person he is, emerge.

We sat and talked this past Easter weekend and the conversation turned to loss. He said he knows that he can survive loss, he has already. However the most painful part is that five days, five weeks or even five years from now he knows he can’t make plans with Mike.

Memories are the most precious possessions we have. The most painful part of loss is that there are no more opportunities for memories, except the ones that include our Angels in thought, but not in the physical sense. Mike can’t break my new couch, drive into the garage door, bring flowers to me, take my breath away with his bear hugs or make me laugh until my sides hurt. It is a loss more deep than I could have imagined when first I started down this road and it is highlighted by how many memories I am making with my other sons. How different we would all be if he were still here and how different I am sure we became because he couldn’t stay. We did not have a choice as to the path, but I can’t help but think that as Robert Frost wrote:

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.





Diana's Memory Lane

Through sharing our memories
It keeps our children alive.
With each special moment remembered
They help us to survive.
As we walk down memory lane,
We always keep them near.
For they are the ones we will never forget.
The ones that we hold so dear.

Written by:Zana Maxwell-AngelMom to Alex

alexchristopher.memory-of.com



This month Pam has shared a memory of her Angel Freddy with us...thanks Pam!

Have 26 years of memories but here is one I am most proud of...

Freddy was a senior and April was a junior. They were going to April's Junior Prom. 4 couples planned for months to all go together Complete with limo & a suite at a hotel with all the trimmings. I was Hesitant about the hotel part but I trusted my son. They were so Excited! And what a beautiful couple they made. Everything went Perfect and off to the Prom they went. My husband and I went to bed Around 11 PM. Shortly after we hear commotion at the front door. I Open the door and who is there but a tux clad Freddy and a sequined Gowned April!!! Freddy had his "ugly face" on that he got when Something went terribly wrong or when he got up every morning. LOL! Both started talking at the same time. Finally we got the story. After Prom they all went to the hotel which they had stocked earlier With food, games and videos. All the other couples started pairing off Immediately to go do what a lot of teens do on Prom night. Freddy & April went to have fun and enjoy a good night of fun with friends. What the other couples were doing was not what they wanted to do. So Freddy brought April here and here they stayed the night. I felt so Badly for them, yet at the same time both my husband and I knew we had Instilled something in our son that was priceless.....he was his own Person and wasn't afraid of anyone knowing it!!! We did our job very Well!

Please send Memory to dianaandharold@bellsouth.net

Thanks Diana



National Organ and Tissue Donation Awareness Week

In 1983 Congress requested that President Reagan proclaim April 22 through April 28, 1984 as National Organ Donation Awareness Week. Not long after, the name was changed to National Organ and Tissue Donation Awareness Week. Tommy Thompson, Health and Human Services Secretary, announced in 2003 that April would be a time to recognize the need for donations of organs, tissue, marrow and blood. President Bush issued a proclamation recognizing the observance. He called National Donate Life Month a chance to “honor living and deceased donors and their families across our Nation.” He also urged more Americans to follow their example.

By expanding the event to a full month, more public awareness activities can take place. Thousands of partners throughout the country take part in National Donate Life Month, including associations, state governments, federal agencies, private companies and fraternal organizations. The partners help millions of people learn what they can do to save the lives of those in need.

The event’s message is an important one. Although more than 22,000 organ transplants and 46,000 corneal transplants were performed in 2002, there are still more people needing transplants than there are organs available. Every 13 minutes, a new name is added to the nation’s organ transplant waiting list. That adds up to about 110 new people every day for a current total of approximately 84,000 names.

Kidney transplants- Many people are waiting for kidneys and the number is growing. In 2001, 47,830 patients waited for a kidney to become available. In 2002, the number was up to 50,855. About 75% of the increase was among people 50-years old or older. This age group makes up half of the total waiting list, up from 34% in 1993. Fortunately for kidney patients, dialysis is an alternative lifesaving treatment. This is not the case for other conditions such as heart and liver disease.

While the number of people wanting transplants is on the rise, the number of people donating organs hasn’t changed much. This means patients must wait longer to get organs. On average, 16 people die every day while waiting for an organ to become available.

There is also a growing trend in live organ donations. With the typical wait for a cadaver organ being a few years, many people in need of a transplant look to their relatives, friends and other acquaintances to make living donations, which decreases the wait time for an organ. Willing donors will go through testing to determine if they are a suitable match to the recipient. National Donate Life Month emphasizes how valuable organ donation is for so many and encourages everyone to become a donor.

How to donate

Almost anyone 18 years or older can donate organs, regardless of their health. If you would like to donate your organs to help save another person’s life, follow these steps:

Put your decision in writing. Since laws differ from state to state, log onto www.organdonor.gov.

Tell your family what you want to do. Making your loved ones aware of your intention to donate your organs will help them honor your request in the event of your death. It is important to discuss this, because your relatives will be asked for the go-ahead to donate your organs, even if you have a signed donor card. The Donate Life website ( OrganDonor.gov



National Crime Victims' Rights Week
April 13-19, 2008
Justice For Victims. Justice For All.

From April 13-19, National Crime Victims’ Rights Week will be observed across the nation by victims, survivors, and the professionals and volunteers who assist them. This year’s theme is “Justice for Victims. Justice for All.”

To crime victims, justice means that they are heard, treated with respect, and that their losses will be recognized. Victims’ Rights Week brings us together to make justice truly meaningful for crime victims. It helps us recognize the rights and needs of victims and survivors of crime, and that crime isn’t something that “happens to someone else.”

National Organization For Victim Assistance (NOVA)
Office Of Victims Of Crime
Parents Of Murdered Children
Mothers Against Drunk Drivers





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Acts Of Kindness




The Act Of Kindness Award will be given to an AngelMom that was nominated for their kindness and thoughtfulness. It will not be a contest, it is "Thank You" kind of award. Anyone can be nominated. If someone has touched your heart by doing something special, please nominate them by emailing Loni. There is no exclusions, everyone is included. We will list each member that has received an Award.

Acts of Kindness for the month of March were presend to
All Angel Moms by Nancy Pion

Angel Mom's Acts of Kindness





Chinese Chicken with Cashews

Ingredients:
- 1/4 cup lite soy sauce
- 1/4 cup rice vinegar
- 1/4 cup dry sherry
- 2 tablespoons chopped fresh ginger (or 2 teaspoons ground ginger)
- 3 medium cloves garlic, crushed
- 1/2 pound boneless skinless chicken breast, cut into 1/2-inch pieces
- 2 teaspoons sesame oil
- 1 medium red bell pepper, sliced (1 cup)
- 1 teaspoon cornstarch
- Salt and freshly ground black pepper, to taste
- 1/4 cup unsalted cashew nuts
- 2 scallions

Directions:
Mix soy sauce, vinegar, sherry, ginger, and garlic together in a small bowl. Add chicken and marinate while you prepare the other ingredients. Heat a wok or skillet over high heat and add oil. Remove chicken from marinade with a slotted spoon, reserving liquid. Add chicken to work and stir-fry 2 minutes. Remove to a plate. Add red pepper and stir-fry 2 minutes. Mix cornstarch with reserved marinade. Add marinade and chicken to the wok and stir-fry 2 minutes with the peppers. Remove from heat. Add salt and pepper. Sprinkle cashew nuts and scallions on top and serve over rice.



Ladyfinger Lemon Dessert

Ingredients:
1 can (12 ounces) evaporated milk
1 package (3 ounces) ladyfingers, split
1 package (3 ounces) lemon gelatin
1 cup boiling orange juice
1/2 cup sugar
1/3 cup lemon juice
2 teaspoons grated lemon peel
1 cup reduced-fat whipped topping

Directions:
Pour milk into a small metal mixing bowl; place mixer beaters in the bowl. Cover and refrigerate for at least 2 hours or overnight. Line the sides of a 9-in. spring form pan with ladyfingers; set aside. In a large bowl, dissolve gelatin in orange juice. Stir in the sugar, lemon juice and peel; cool to room temperature. Beat chilled milk until soft peaks form; fold into gelatin mixture. Pour into prepared pan. Refrigerate for at least 3 hours or until firm. Spread with whipped topping. Remove sides of pan. Refrigerate leftovers. Yield: 10 servings.









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