Our Featured Mom for the month of January is Chrissy Rowe
Hi I am Chrissy and I live in Perth Western Australia with Jimmy 12, Samantha 8 and Andrianna 2 years old.
Jimmy and Andrianna are both Developmentally delayed and they receive services once a week and the appointments keeps me busy during the weeks.
Jimmy and Samantha will be back at school 1 Feb.I have lost two angels, Anthony at 28 weeks gestation 4 Aug 2001 and another Angel at 17 weeks gestation 21 Oct 2002. both due to an incompetent cervix, premature rupture of the membranes, Group B Strep, Urea Plasma Infection, cord prolapse/ passing of numerous blood clots (in 2 nd loss) but all of the above Conditions of my Two angels.
Andrianna is my miracle baby, after close monitoring and a stitch placed She was delivered healthy on 5 November 2003. I was 40 years old when she was born. I do hope my post will renew positive hopes to Angel Moms who are currently pregnant or TTC.
I enjoy gardening, cooking and reading and of course chatting on the Internet.
I am hoping that I can be of support to anyone who would like to talk.
I just want to say a big THANK YOU to those who nominated me Feature Angel mum of the Month of February and that I am very honoured and very surprised.
I am thinking of you and your Angels and send you very gentle hugs to you all.
When I Finally Come to Glory
by: Fran Morgan
I need a favor, Blessed Mother
Could you help me with this please?
It's concerning your son, Jesus
So I'm praying on my knees
When I finally come to Glory
And I see the Promised Land,
I envision Jesus smiling,
Reaching out His loving hand.
He will be so glad to see me
When I finally arrive,
For I proclaim His name on earth
Each day that I'm alive.
He will want to keep His promise
Bring me straight to Father God
And to the Holy Spirit
But Oh Mother...this is hard
For my child will be there cheering
As I come through Heaven's Gate
And I know you know my heart's desire
And How Long I've Had To Wait!
I'm afraid that when I see my son
I'll forget the protocol,
And run to hold him in my arms,
Bypassing One and All!
We will smile and laugh together
And dance around with glee,
To touch his hair, and kiss his face
Is what Heaven means to me.
So will you, Blessed Mother
Please explain me to your Son?
Because you have a mother's heart
You KNOW to whom I'll run.
Make it right with the Creator
and the Blessed Trinity
I'm afraid I'll fly right past Them
When my golden son I see.
I don't want to shock the Angels
Or to scandalize the Saints,
Or to have my Day of Glory
Be the day all Heaven faints!
I have borne what God has sent me,
Praised and thanked Him through lifes worst,
And, if Heaven is my just reward,
Let me see my baby FIRST.
Then I'll join the Angels singing
As I praise God with my boy,
To be finally reunited
With my son...and God of joy!
Valentines day for a grieving Mother
Valentines day can mean so many different things to a grieving mother, For the ones that lost older children we have Valentine memories of our children, I remember when Tiffany was little and how excited she would get when Valentines Day got here it would mean school parties with lots of goodies and exchanging Valentine cards she loved getting her cards and would save them, I still have a few of them.I would always make a heart cake and put my kids name on the cake and give them a card to let them know how much I loved them. When Tiffany got into High school they had Valentine dances for them. The memories are beautiful that I have of her but they hurt also knowing that I wont have any other memories of her and just missing her so much. For the mothers that dont have these memories I know that hurts and my heart goes out to you. I know that holding on to each other though these special days helps us all.
Valentines day also means showing others like parents and friends and of course Hubby's how much we love them. Our Hubby's are hurting to and missing all the things we are missing. Making him a card or doing something special for him will help him alot and it will help you to feel better to. I have made a card for him before just from Tiffany saying Dad sending you hugs from Heaven on Valentines Day. That really put a big smile on his face.
Also I would like to say how I feel about all you wonderful mothers for Valentines Day. You all are very special to me and I'm so glad that I have such wonderful friends here in Angel Moms. I love you all.
Holly (mom to angel Tiffany)
When we lose a child, our whole lives change, everything we believed in and dreamed of is changed forever, life will never be the same. We have to learn to live again and learn how to live this new life we have been dealt with. I am not saying every thing from our old lives is gone, because it's not, but losing a big part of it like we have, changes it all. In the beginning, it is hard to imagine the future, it scares us. When I first lost my son Shane, I could not picture life five years or ten years into the future, heck, I couldn't even picture the next week. Then I realized, to survive, I could not look into the future, I had to take it one day at a time and concentrate on getting through that day and to deal with the next one when it came. It wasn't easy and I had a lot of set backs and still do. But I know I have to keep going, not only for my surviving children, but for myself, I know it is what Shane wants me to do. Besides, what better tribute can I give to Shane and his life than to live mine to the fullest and try to make a difference in the lives of others in his memory. And I know he is right there with me every step of the way.
So to all of you who are new to this pain, take it one day at a time, don't try and look at the big picture. Don't be afraid to reach out and let others help you, let others know what you need. There is no pain in the world like losing a child, but by sharing it with others who understands helps us survive it. And through the deaths of our children, we gain some wonderful gifts, the friendship of others who know and share your pain, it is a bond like no other.
A DAY FOR HEARTS
Zackary Sean
We, Krista (angel Zackary forever 3 ½ months young) & Mylène (angel Sean forever 8 months young) have experienced the life and death of a son due to Congenital Heart Defects (CHD).
Receiving the news that something is wrong with your child’s heart is earth shattering. In our case, the CHD was diagnosed during pregnancy, and what should have been a joyful time instead became months of worry and fear. Zackary’s older brother, and Sean’s daddy both said our babies were born with a “broken heart”. Parents who are faced with this are forced to make life altering choices about the future of their child before he or she is even born. To add to the stress, the heart defect may be just the tip of the iceberg, because it is often a sign of other medical issues, such as genetic disorders (this was the case with my angel Zackary, who was born with Down Syndrome) (in Sean’s case it is still unknown, still awaiting autopsy results). We learn a whole new language of medical terms, about oxygen saturation levels, Bradys, Tacycardia, monitors, surgeries and medications. We pray and we search for answers. We look for the most current information on the newest treatments, hoping it will be just what was is needed to save our child.
Thankfully there are many resources out there that provide wonderful information and give hope in what may seem like a hopeless situation. Some of the best web sites we found are :
www.tchin.org
www.chdfamilies.com
www.chdquilt.org
www.chdinfo.com
www.babyheartspress.com/
www.savinglittlehearts.com
www.chssdc.org/doc/9062
In some ways we started grieving during our pregnancy. Then the wonderful birth of our sons came and we were faced with seeing our babies endure operations, IV’s, Catheters, being poked and proded constantly. Exam after exam, our little babies needed rest and their mommy’s and daddy’s to hold and cuddle them, which is impossible in most cases due to all the drains, lines, etc. We can not speak for everyone but in our case, our grieving and heartache has been a long journey from that day in the doctor’s office, pregnant and happy, given the blow of been given the choice to continue or terminate our babies lives, then through the remainder of our pregnancy the worry, through the life of our precious son’s lives more worry and grief, and now the ultimate grief of loosing our son’s Zackary and Sean.
CHD affects millions of newborn infants and children worldwide; it is considered to be the most common birth defect, and is a leading cause of birth-defect related deaths worldwide. CHDs are the #1 birth defect. It affects about 1% (one in every 100 ) of newborns -- over 40,000 babies are born with heart defects in the United States every year, alone. Each day 10,830 babies are born in the U.S.; 411 of them have a birth defect -- of those, 87 will be born with a congenital heart defect. (According to the March of Dimes)
Congenital Heart Defect Fact Sheet
1. Sometimes during early pregnancy, a baby's heart fails to form properly, resulting in structural abnormalities known as Congenital Heart Defects. Although some defects are genetic, in many cases the cause is unknown.
2. It is estimated that 40,000 babies with Congenital Heart Defects (CHD) are born in the United States alone each year. Approximately 1 million American children and adults with Congenital Heart Defects and Childhood Onset Heart Disease are alive today.
3. CHD is the most frequently occurring birth defect, and is the leading cause of birth-defect related deaths.
4. Although some babies will be diagnosed at birth, sometimes the diagnosis is not made until days, weeks, months, or even years after. In some cases, CHDs are not detected until adolescence or adulthood.
5. Some CHDs may not require treatment other than periodic visits to a Pediatric Cardiologist. Others can be treated with medications or repaired with surgery and/or procedures. Complex defects may require several surgeries and are never really "cured".
6. Many cases of sudden cardiac death in young athletes are caused by undiagnosed CHDs and Childhood Onset Heart Disease.
7. During the year 1998 in the United States, 55,000 hospital admissions for treatment of CHD were recorded, a statistic which includes an estimated 20,000 operations performed for repair or palliation per year.
So this Valentine’s Day February 14th, A DAY FOR HEARTS, please pray for all those born with “broken hearts”, and all the families that support them, or grieve for them. We are sure that our heart angels, who now sport a GOLDEN HEART, are throwing a big party up in heaven!
A concerted global effort is being made to heighten awareness of this deadly group of diseases. Krista, mom to Angel Zackary Mylène, mommy to Angel Sean
Milestones
Well I have just survived another one of Jill’s birthdays without her. She would be 25 years old now. I can’t help but think about everything she should be doing with her life. She was in college taking classes at the time of her passing. She had dreams of becoming a computer animator and working for Disney making movies like Toy Story and Shrek. I’m sure that if that horrible disease known as leukemia had not struck, she would have realized her dreams. Everything she did, she was good at and did well. She always made us so proud. Maybe she would be married now with children. Maybe she would still be living nearby or possibly have moved away. I have asked myself so many times why life is so unfair. Why am I still here living my life and not her? I am the one who should be in heaven now waiting for her, not the other way around. I also think about all the years to come that I have to continue living my life without her. How am I going to get through it? It’s been almost five years and at times it seems like yesterday and other times so long ago. Sometimes I’m actually afraid of all the coming milestones I will have to endure with a hole in my heart that will never fully heal. All the birthdays, heaven days and holidays will never be the same without our angels. All we can do now is keep their memory alive. We will never ever forget them, no one else should. Here’s a short article I would like to share with all of you:
Finding meaning in life
Parents report that they never really "get over" the death of a child, but rather learn to live with the loss. The death of a child can force parents to rethink their priorities and reexamine the meaning of life. It may seem impossible to newly grieving parents, but parents do go on to find happiness and reinvest in life again. An important step for many parents is to create a legacy for their child and make their child's life, no matter how short, have a more complete purpose. Parents may choose to honor their child by volunteering at a local hospital or a cancer support organization. Parents may work to support interests their child once had, start a memorial fund, or plant trees in their child's memory. It is important to remember that it is never disloyal to the deceased child to re-engage in life and to find pleasure in new experiences.
Every child changes the lives of his or her parents. Children show us new ways to love, new things to find joy in, and new ways look to at the world. A part of each child's legacy is that the changes he or she brings to a family continue after the child's death. The memories of joyful moments you spent with your child and the love you shared will live on and always be a part of you.
The Miles Ahead
Once again, I am clutching to January, not wanting to let it go. Twenty-five years ago I was holding a brand new baby, the apple of my eye and the object of his older brother’s affection. Today, I am holding memories of that January and 20 years of joy. We celebrated Mike’s last birthday with him, his 20th, in 2001. I have never loved winter, so I am annoyed that I am regretting that January is gone once again. Mike loved the cold weather. It has occurred to me that it is not so much the miles traveled that have me down, but the miles ahead. I am looking down the road and realizing, that this marathon has only just begun and I am very tired.
Running analogies! I have shared my running experiences over the past year with you. I did run a 10 mile race last week. This is a distance that I never would have attempted a year ago, but I have come to realize that running is as much a mental test as it is a physical challenge. Grief is very much like running. You can do more than you think you can. When I run the first couple of miles are harder than the last. My lungs can’t seem to get enough oxygen. Maybe, I just can’t breathe properly now. Maybe as I warm up, the miles ahead will be easier than the miles already traveled.
My oldest is planning his wedding. In lieu of wedding favors, a donation to Mike’s Scholarship Fund will be made. This is really great, only I wish he could be at the wedding! It is all so painful and the miles ahead are many.
Hope you all spend Valentine’s Day with someone you love!
Bead Angel
You will need:
28 8mm beads (dress)
1 16mm bead (head)
42 3X6mm beads (halo and wings)
1.5 Yards 24 gauge wire
Instructions:
1) Find the center point of the wire. Bend wire into L shape at center.
2) Slide 7 (8mm) beads to the bend in the wire.
3) Slide 6 beads onto one end of the wire keeping them near the end. Thread other end of the wire back through the 6 beads and pull tight. Flatten out the rows as needed. (See Diagram 1) Flatten out rows as needed.
4) Slide 5 beads onto one end of the wire, push the other end through all 5 beads, and pull tight.
5) Continue adding beads using the same method until there is a row with just one bead.
6) Take the longer end of the wire and thread 17 3X6mm beads on it. Pass the through the row of 3 (8mm) beads and then thread 17 3X6mm beads on the wire and then pass it through the row of 1 (8mm) bead. (See diagram 2)
7) Pass both ends through the 16mm bead.
8) Take the longer end of the wire and thread 8 3X6mm beads. Take the other end of the wire and form a hanger loop. Take both ends of the wire and wrap them around the wire just below the halo.
9) Cut off any extra wire, adjust the wings
Beyond Surviving
Struggle with "why" it happened until you no longer need to know "why" or until you are satisfied with a partial answer.
Know you may feel overwhelmed by the intensity of your feelings. All your feelings are normal.
Anger, guilt, confusion, forgetfulness are common responses. You are not crazy, you are in mourning.
REMEMBER, NO ONE IS THE SOLE INFLUENCE IN ANOTHER'S LIFE.
grief is OK......
IT'S OKAY TO GRIEVE: The death of a loved one is a reluctant and drastic amputation, without any anesthesia. The pain cannot be described, and no scale can measure the loss. We despise the truth that the death cannot be reversed, and that somehow our dear one returned. Such hurt!! It's okay to grieve.
IT'S OKAY TO CRY: Tears release the flood of sorrow, of missing and of love. Tears relieve the brute force of hurting, enabling us to "level off" and continue our cruise along the stream of life. It's okay to cry.
IT'S OKAY TO HEAL: We do not need to "prove" we loved him or her. As the months pass, we are slowly able to move around with less outward grieving each day. We need not feel "guilty", for this is not an indication that we love less. It means that, although we don't like it, we are learning to accept death. It's a healthy sign of healing. It's okay to heal.
IT'S OKAY TO LAUGH: Laughter is not a sign of "less" grief. Laughter is not a sign of "less" love. It's a sign that many of our thoughts and memories are happy ones. It's a sign that we know our memories are happy ones. It's a sign that we know our dear one would have us laugh again. It's okay to laugh.
... if we avoid grief will it go away?
Grief is as old as mankind but is one of the most neglected of human problems. As we become aware of this neglect, we come to realize the enormous cost that it has been to the individual, to the families and to society, in terms of pain and suffering because we have neglected the healing of grief. Essential to a grieving person is to have at least one person who will allow them, give them permission to grieve. Some people can turn to a friend or to a family member. Some find a support group that will allow one to be the way one needs to be at the present as they work through their grief.
Dealing appropriately with grief is important in helping to preserve healthy individuals and nurturing families, to avoid destroying bodies and their psyche, their marriages and their relationships.
You can postpone grief but you cannot avoid it. As other stresses come along, one becomes less able to cope if one has other unresolved grief.
It requires a great deal of energy to avoid grief and robs one of energy for creative expression in relating to other people and in living a fulfilling life. It limits one's life potential.
Suppressing grief keeps one in a continual state of stress and shock, unable to move from it. Our body feels the effects of it in ailments. Our emotional life suffers. Our spiritual life suffers. We say that the person is "stuck in grief". When a person faces his grief, allows his feeling to come, speaks of his grief, allows its expression, it is then that the focus is to move from death and dying and to promote life and living.
why we grieve differently
We accept without question uniqueness in the physical world.....fingerprints, snowflakes, etc. But we often refuse that same reality in our emotional world. This understanding is needed, especially in the grieving process. No two people will ever grieve the same way, with the same intensity or for the same duration.
It is important to understand this basic truth. Only then can we accept our own manner of grieving and be sensitive to another's response to loss. Only then are we able to seek out the nature of support we need for our own personalized journey back to wholeness and be able to help others on their own journey. Not understanding the individuality of grief could complicate and delay whatever grief we might experience from our own loss. It could also influence us, should we attempt to judge the grieving of others - even those we might most want to help.
Each of us is a unique combination of diverse past experiences. We each have a different personality, style, various way of coping with stress situations, and our own attitudes influence how we accept the circumstances around us. We are also affected by the role and relationship that each person in a family system had with the departed, by circumstances surrounding the death and by influences in the present.
PAST EXPERIENCE ... Past experiences from childhood on, have a great impact on how we are able to handle loss in the present. What other losses have we faced in our childhood, adolescence, adulthood? How frightening were these experiences? Was there good support? Were feelings allowed to be expressed in a secure environment? Has there been a chance to recover and heal from these earlier losses? What other life stresses have been going on prior to this recent loss? Has there been a move to a new area? Were there financial difficulties, problems or illness with another member of the family or with ourself? What has our previous mental health history been like? Have we had bouts with depression? Have we harbored suicidal thoughts? Have we experienced a nervous breakdown? Have we been treated with medication or been hospitalized? How has our family cultural influences conditioned us to respond to loss and the emotions of grief (stoic father, emotional mother, etc.)?
RELATIONSHIP WITH THE DECEASED.......No outsider is able to determine the special bond that connects two people, regardless of the relationship, role or length of time the relationship has been in existence. Our relationship with the deceased has a great deal to do with the intensity and duration of our grief. What was that relationship? Was the deceased a spouse? A child? A parent? A friend? A sibling? How strong was the attachment to the deceased? Was it a close, dependent relationship, or intermittent and independent? What was the degree of ambivalence (the love/hate balance) in that relationship? It is not only the person, but also the role that person played in our life which is lost. How major was that role? Was that person the sole breadwinner, the driver, the handler of financial matters? The only one who could fix a decent dinner? Was that person a main emotional support, an only friend? How dependent were we on the role that person filled?
CIRCUMSTANCES SURROUNDING THE DEATH......The circumstances surrounding the death; i.e., how the death occurred, are extremely important in determining how we are going to come to an acceptance of the loss. Was the loss in keeping with the laws of Nature as when a person succumbs to old age? Or was order thrown into chaos, as when a parent lives to see a child die? What warnings were there that there would be a loss? Was there time to prepare, time to gradually come to terms with the inevitable? Or did death come so suddenly that there was no anticipation of its arrival? Do we feel that this death could have been prevented or forestalled? How much responsibility am I taking for this death? Do we feel that the deceased accomplished what he or she was meant to fulfill in this lifetime? Was their life full and rewarding? How much was left unsaid or undone between ourselves and the deceased? Does the extent of unfinished business foster a feeling of guilt?
INFLUENCES IN THE PRESENT......We have looked at the past, at the relationship, and how the loss occurred. Now we see how the influences in the present can impact how we are finally going to come to terms with a current loss. Age and sex are important factors. Are we young enough and resilient enough to bounce back? Are we old enough and wise enough to accept the loss and to grow with the experience? Can our life be rebuilt again? What opportunities does life offer now? Is health a problem? What are the secondary losses that are the result of this death? Loss of income? Home? Family breakup? What other stresses or crises are present? Our personality, present stability of mental health, and coping behavior play a significiant role in our response to the loss. What kind of role expectations do we have for ourselves? What are those imposed by friends, relatives and others? Are we expected to be the "strong one" or is it alright for us to break down and have someone else take care of us? Are we going to try to assume an unrealistic attempt to satisfy everyone's expectations, or are we going to withdraw from the entire situation? What is there in our social, cultural and ethnic backgrounds that give us strength and comfort? What role do rituals play in our recovery? Do our religious or philosophical beliefs bring comfort or add sorrow and guilt? What kind of social support is there in our lives during this emotional upheaval?
CONCLUSION......When a person who is a part of our life dies, understanding the uniqueness of this loss can guide us in finding the support we will need and to recognize when help should come from outside family or friends. When the loss is experienced by someone we would like to help or by someone under our care, this same understanding is essential. Thus we can guard against a temptation to compare or to judge their grief responses to our own. The awareness of those factors which affect the manner, intensity and duration of grief, should enable us to guide the grieving person in seeking those forms of support suggested by the nature of their loss and the unique way it affects them.
by Jinny Tesik, M.A.
Acts Of Kindness
Acts of Kindness for January were presented to:
Judi Walker by Melody Hill
Diane Craddock by Melody Hill
The Act Of Kindness Award will be given to an AngelMom that was nominated for their kindness and thoughtfulness. It will not be a contest, it is "Thank You" kind of award. Anyone can be nominated. If someone has touched your heart by doing something special, please nominate them by emailing Loni. There is no exclusions, everyone is included. We will list each member that has received an Award.
Angel Mom's Acts of Kindness
Ten Healing Rights for Grieving Children
For the surviving children/ siblings .
1. I have the right to have my own unique feelings about the death. I may feel mad, sad or lonely. I may feel scared or relieved. I may feel numb or sometimes not anything at all. No one will feel exactly like I do.
2. I have the right to talk about my grief whenever I feel like talking. When I need to talk, I will find someone who will listen to me and love me. When I don't want to talk about it, that's okay, too.
3. I have the right to show my feelings of grief in my own way. When they are hurting, some kids like to play so they'll feel better for awhile. I can play or laugh, too. I might also get mad and scream. This does not mean I am bad, it just means I have scary feelings that I need help with.
4. I have the right to need other people to help me with my grief, especially grown-ups who care about me. Mostly I need them to pay attention to what I am feeling and saying and to love me no matter what.
5. I have the right to get upset about normal, everyday problems. I might feel grumpy and have trouble getting along with others sometimes.
6. I have the right to have "grief-bursts." Grief-bursts are sudden, unexpected feelings of sadness that just hit me sometimes even long after the death. These feelings can be very strong and even scary. When this happens, I might feel afraid to be alone.
7. I have the right to use my beliefs about my God to help me deal with my feelings of grief. Praying might make me feel better and somehow closer to the person who died.
8. I have the right to try to figure out why the person I loved died. But it's okay if I don't find an answer. "Why" questions about life and death are the hardest questions in the world.
9. I have the right to think and talk about my memories of the person who died. Sometimes those memories will be happy and sometimes they might be sad. Either way, these memories help me keep alive my love for the person who died.
10. I have the right to move forward and feel my grief and, over time, to heal. I'll go on to live a happy life, but the life and death of the person who died will always be a part of me. I'll always miss this special person.
Beef Noodle Casserole, Easy Ranch Beans, Broccoli Tomatoes Sauté, Black Cake
Beef Noodle Casserole
1 lb. lean ground beef
1/2 cup onions finely chopped
2-3/4 cups noodles
11 ounces condensed tomato soup
1-1/4 cups water
1/8 tsp. pepper
1 cup breadcrumbs
Brown beef and onions in a hot skillet. Drain. In a large saucepan, cook noodles in boiling water until tender, about 10 minutes. Drain and set aside. Combine soup, water, and pepper. Gently stir into the beef and onion mixture. Add cooked noodles. Spoon into a 9x13 inch baking pan. Sprinkle breadcrumbs on top. Bake uncovered at 300°F for about 30 minutes.
Prep: 20 min, Cook: 45
min. Per serving: calories 742, fat 14.5g, 18% calories from fat, cholesterol 41mg, protein 41.3g, carbohydrates 108.7g, fiber 3.8g, sugar 9.2g, sodium 757mg, diet points 15.8.
Easy Ranch Beans
1/4 cup chopped green bell pepper\raw
1-3/4 cups canned vegetarian baked beans
1-3/4 cups canned red kidney beans, drained and rinsed
2 Tbs. ketchup
2 Tbs. molasses
1/2 tsp. onion powder
Place all ingredients in a saucepan and heat thoroughly, about 10 minutes.
Prep: 5 min, Cook: 10 min.
Per serving: calories 233, fat 0.9g, 3% calories from fat, cholesterol 0mg, protein 11.4g, carbohydrates 49.4g, fiber 9.8g, sugar 15.6g, sodium 634mg, diet points 3.3.
Broccoli Tomatoes Sauté
2 tsp. unsalted butter
1 lb. broccoli florets\cooked
1 cup crushed tomatoes
Melt butter in a heavy saucepan over medium heat. Sauté broccoli florets 2-3 minutes. Add tomatoes and salt and pepper to taste. Cover and simmer 3-4 minutes or until broccoli is tender.
Prep: 5 min, Cook: 10 min.
Per serving: calories 60, fat 2.4g, 30% calories from fat, cholesterol 5mg, protein 4.0g, carbohydrates 8.4g, fiber 3.9g, sugar 3.6g, sodium 119mg, diet points 1.1.
Black Cake
1/2 cup unsalted butter
1/4 cup plus 1 Tbs. cocoa
1/2 cup milk
2 eggs, unbeaten
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1 cup sugar
3/4 cup all purpose flour
2 Tbs. baking powder
1/4 tsp. salt (necessary)
Preheat oven to 350°F. Place first 2 ingredients in top of a double boiler, and heat until melted and smooth. Remove from heat. Add next 3 ingredients and stir just enough to blend. Sift remaining 4 ingredients together in a bowl. Pour the cocoa mixture all at once into the dry ingredients and stir quickly until well blended. Bake in an 8 inch square pan about 25 minutes, or until a tester comes out clean.
Prep: 10 min, Cook: 25 min.
Per serving: calories 276, fat 13.7g, 43% calories from fat, cholesterol 80mg, protein 3.8g, carbohydrates 37.8g, fiber 1.5g, sugar 26.2g, sodium 46mg, diet points 6.9.
Rainbow
Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue
Make up the Rainbow That's You
Red for the anger I feel,
Orange sunrise and sunset,
Yellow for the pain that won't heal,
Green for the lives that go on,
Blue is for us, so sad you are gone.
For Meaghan, my precious baby girl,
10/29/96 - 02/15/97,
and for all who have left us.
Some Links To Share
Remember Me Bears
Streets Of Heaven
Where Angels Dwells
My Daughter Walks With Jesus
Like a bird singing in the rain,
let grateful memories survive
in times of sorrow.
~Robert Louis Stevenson~
Angel Moms Newsletter-February Printable Version
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Editor: Judi,
Staff: Brenda,Krista, Lynn, Laurie, Mylene, Holly, Linda,
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