This month's featured mom is Joanie Harris aka Wedgie
Hi! My name is Joanie also known as Wedgie!
As most of you know I'm not good with words. And I hope this will sound all right!I became a Mom to an Angel on December 1, 1997. I'll tell you a little bit of how I was doing before Angel Moms came into my life I was just breathing from day to day! I am so glad I had gotten on line and Judi's Shane showed me Angel Moms all by mistake I thought. But Shane and Ricky made it happen!
Now what this group means to me. You are all my lifeline! Angel Moms is the best thing that has happen to me since the birth of my Boys! You gals make my day. Somedays all I do is sit and cry when I read of all our heart ache, then there are the days I can't seem to stop laughing! I can tell you gals anything. A few months ago I was going through a very hard time in my life. And I told you gals before I even told my husband. I am still having some troubles, But I know with all the prayers and love from Angel Moms that what ever the outcome I will make it!
I hate that any of us has to be here! But am so glad a very special lady that means more to me than she will ever know, cared enough about me to want to help me.....thank you Judi
I would also like to Thank the first Moms that made me want to live life again: Debbie R., Deb G., Judi W., Capri W., Martha J. and Carin F..There were some more but are not with the group anymore.
Well, Thank you all I Love You ALL!!!!!!!
Joanie Harris
Ricky's Page
Poetry Section
Valentines To Heaven
This Valentine is not of the ordinary kind,
Its still filled with love...and blessings inside;
But mine has to be sent on the wings of love...
You see its destination is the Heavens above.
Its not being sent to my parents so dear,
For they are still with me each day of the year;
Its being sent to my child...who left earth so soon,
Who's now in the Heavens with the stars and the moon.
The message is the same as your valentine,
"I love you...my sweet precious child of mine;
My love is still deeper than the ocean is blue,
And its sent with hugs and kisses...from me to you."
"I know you are with me each and every day,
You listen as I talk to you...and hear what I say;
For that is one thing that disease cannot do...
...you'll always be apart of me...and me a part of you."
"I know God did not give you the awful disease,
Thank Him for His comfort He gives me...would you please?
I dont know what I would do without His undying love...
Sent to bereaved parents from the Heavens above."
"I know you are in the best of care,
But it's so hard for us left on earth to bear;
Could you put in a request from us left behind...
For God to send the knowledge..so a cure we can find."
"So that no other family has to go through this pain,
Our lives without you will never be the same;
When I get lonely I will look to the sky at night...
And see you shining down your big bright light."
"Happy Valentines day sunshine...I miss you so much,
I know you know how many lives you have touched;
You'll always be mine...I love you with all my heart,
I know we be together again...and then we'll never part."
So you see the meaning is still the same...
The method of delivery is the only change;
Mine must be sent by a little white dove...
On the wings of Love.
Copyright © January 2001 Written by :
Laura/Heavenly Lights Childrens Memorial
http://www.heavenlylights.homestead.com
Unauthorized reprinting of this poem in any form
is prohibited without the prior consent of the author.
From Deb's Desk
I have some wonderful news to share with all of you. My oldest daughter married her high school sweet heart two years ago on November 18th. This year her and my son in law announced they will be having their first child. Hope and CJ are having a little girl in June of this year. Her name is Saige and so far the pregnancy has gone very smoothly, without morning sickness or any of those other things that some times goes along with expecting a baby. On January 30th I went to the doctor with my daughter, this was the day all her test results came back and if we were lucky we would know if our new family member would be a boy or a girl. Needless to say I was astonished on how much things have changed for having a baby. Upon arrival at the doctors office we were taken into a room where they would do the ultra sound. AMAZING thing this is!!! I got to see my grand daughter, her hands, feet, saw her roll over and suck her finger. She is so small, yet developing beautifully. Hope is five months pregnant and Saige only weighs 11 ounces, which is about a pound less than normal. But according to the doctor its fine and we are not to worry about this. Well, I walked out of that office a very proud Grandma..and what do you think new Grandmas do????? THEY SHOP!!! and buy lots of pink, lace and ruffles. I have to say, I think being a grandma is going to be a wonderful experience!
From Debbie's Desk
Time and Grief
When recalling past things now, do you find yourself saying or thinking of certain instances happening "before or after" your child passed? How did we measure time before our children passed? It is like time stood still.
We also sort out our time by weeks, months and years now. Even though it has been 6 years since Josh left me, I can SO remember the first few days and weeks. It is amazing how we measure our time frames now. Maybe it is a part of a survival mode we can put ourselves in. Thinking back, I can remember when everyone would tell me that if I can make it thru the 1st year, I would be "okay".....I used to wish to God that I could fast forward my self into my first year then, then maybe, I would feel better.
In that first year I also found out about the seven stages of grief. 1) Shock/Denial 2) Anger 3) Bargaining with God or above being 4) Guilt 5) Depression 6) Sadness 7) Acceptance Being that I was new to this grief, I thought that I had to go thru all of these and in that order. It just shows me now, how lost I was. I was seeking and searching for magic words to help me. Yes, you do go thru the stages of grief, but not all in that order, and sometimes all at once! #7 has always stumped me. Accept that Josh was gone? Not in the way that I was thinking.....but "accept the reality" of it all, yes I guess so.
So now when I look back, when Josh first passed (see my time frame thinking!) I felt alone, scared, confused, doubted my own life, and knew something had to change, just didn't know how. But it has. I have learned that with time (don't you hate that word!) it does change. You change and everything you had ever known changes. I have to admit that I am a more likable, understanding, compassionate person that I was before. That is how I always described my son Josh, so maybe when his spirit left his body, it entered into mine. He lives within me. He has made me into a better person. I sure hope he is as proud of me as I am of him....:) Gotta go.....it is dinner time~~the one "time" that I look forward too.....:)
Debbie Mom to Angel Josh ^i^
From Judi's Desk
Losing a child is devestating to parents and can be hard on marriages, so this month, my topic is on grief and how it can affect a marriage and also sone tips for helping to cope. I got my information from a book given to me by a member of MADD shortly after I lost Shane. The book is "No Time For Goodbyes" Coping with sorrow, anger and injustice after a tragic death by Janice Harris Lord. It is a very good book and covers a lot of areas, such as helping siblings, death of children, mates, siblings, parents. It also has chapters on holidays, coping with the justice system and much more. Death Of A Son Or Daughter
The death of a child can have a tremendous impact on the marriage of the parents. Some couples find that the tragedy draws them closer together. This can happen when they communicate openly and support each other, as first one, and then the other, has bad days. It is not uncommon however, for the material relationship to break down in the aftermath of a tragedy as great as the death of their child.
It is very difficult to support and nurture your mate when your own grief is overwhelming. When experiencing trauma, most people regress to a childlike state. They feel vulnerable and need to be "taken care of." If both mates are in the same condition, and neither has the strength to care for the other, feelings of alienation will emerge.
Because your drive to nurture and protect has been violently interrupted, you will probably have a strong need to assess blame. As previously discussed, may parents blame themselves and feel guilty. It is also tempting to blame your mate.
If a child has a terminal illness, it is usually no one's fault. Parents can become very angry that science has not found a cure or the treatment was not successful. But, when they are able to care for their child as he is dying, they can know that they did everything they could.
When a child is killed, someone was at fault. If the cause of the killing is not explicitly clear, parents may engage in a relentless search for the causes. They can usually find a way to blame the other parent, at least in part.
Blaming will intensify the impact of the trauma. It can be a major factor in the break up of a marriage following the death of a child. It may also lead to the premature death of some parents within three to five years after the death of their child.
Another component of stress between mates is the fact that rarely do two people move through grieving in the same way.
As a father, you may chose to grieve privately. You may be angry, deeply resenting the loss of control you feel when you think about your child's death.
As a mother, you may be more open with your grief. You want to talk about it, to cry with someone who understands. You may be more sorrowful and wonder how you mate has the energy to be so angry. On another day, these roles may be reversed.
A very practical side of these differences is seen when it comes to deciding what to with the child's "things." One may be eager to dismantle the child's room and discard clothing and momentos. The other may believe that to do so would deny the existence of the child. Trying to find a happy medium for these polarities may be difficult.
Many couples are distressed to learn that jealousy and envy rear their ugly heads during grieving.
If you are depressed and apathetic, and are at home, you may envy your mate who is at work because you fantasize that she or he can be happy there with many distractions that a job entails. If you are the one working, you may envy the mate at home who can face the grief and not have to "hold up to get the job done."
A father may envy the mother who says she feels a closeness to the child a father can't because she carried the child in her body for nine months and birthed it.
Mates may have unrealistic expectations of each other regarding work load and maintenance of the home. Sloppy housekeeping or failure to mow the lawn may infuriate a mate who is depending on the other to stay on top of things. Many couples say it takes months before they have enough energy to do more than what simply has to be done.
Sexuality can become a divisive issue during bereavement. Your mate may face an increased need for sex as nurture, escape, or release, while you are repulsed at the thought of it. Avoidance of sex can stem from fear of having or losing other children. It can be rooted in guilt over experiencing pleasure when something so awful has happened. Or it can manifest as a classic symptom of depression.
If your barriers to feelings are let down in order to experience the closeness of sexual intimacy, then the flood gate is also opened to pain and grief. Since sexual intimacy and orgasm can put you in touch with feelings at a deep level, you may avoid it for fear of tapping into uncontrollably painfully emotional release. This can be complicated by the fact that your mate may have mannerisms or physical attributes similar to that of the deceased child. To be reminded so potently of the child's death when approaching sexual intimacy can be devastating.
Any of these problems can cause you or your mate to back away from sexual contact. Then the avoidance, if not talked about, can be perceived as an additional rejection. For Example, your mate may perceive you as unresponsive and totally wrapped up in your grief when you say you are not interested in sex. Your mate may then perceive you as insensitive. In fact both of you are hurting and are trying to minimize your own unique pain.
Unfortunately, your mate is the easiest target for venting all types of frustrations. You spend many hours together. Your defenses are down at home more than anywhere else. It is important for you to understand that these problems nearly always rise. You will be fortunate if they don't.
But if they do, try to understand that they are normal consequences of having your child killed suddenly and violently. You don't feel normal. But you are normal in the sense that pain and struggle following major surgery are normal. A very significant part of your life has been cut out. The process of getting better requires time and patience and hard work.
An oft quoted myth is that 80% to 90% of marriages fail when a child dies. Studies reaching this conclusion failed to take normal divorce rates into account and were based on couples already in material counseling. We now know that when divorce does follow the death of a child, it is usually the result of problems that existed before the death. Perhaps the material problems no longer seemed reconcilable after the death of the child. Some of the positive aspects of living through trauma-reordered priorities, a sense of endurance, and a new found assertiveness-may contribute to the decision to go ahead and divorce. But in fact, most marriages do survive the death of a child.
How Long Will It Take?
*It is also impossible to place a timetable on your grieving. Remember that many factors play into it and, therefore, you will develop your own timetable.
*Some begin to feel better as they are able to make sense of what happened by learning all the facts. Some begin to feel better after the court case is disposed of.
*Many people say that the second year is harder than the first. Most people feel noticeably better by the third or fourth year, although some say the third year is harder than the second. Research shows that most survivors feel significantly better by the fourth year.
There will always be good days and bad days. But the pain will decrease as time goes on. You will one day be surprised to learn you can feel sad without becoming engulfed in grief. You will find it possible to be happy if only for a short period of time. Having friends and family who love you and accept you as you are is a blessing. They may be more important than anyone else in helping you get better.
You may want to keep a journal or a diary. They are a good way to see your progress. You may be surprised to learn that what you wrote today shows marled improvement over what you wrote three months ago. It is hard to say when healing starts, but when looking back, it is easier to see.
*Try to understand that it is rare for any two people to grieve the same way. Pay attention to your own grieving needs and do what feels right for you. Likewise, try to respect the needs of others who live in your household.
*Try to keep talking with your mate and with surviving children about how you feel. Attempting to hide your feelings from your family is like covering a cancer with a Band-Aid. You will all be healthier if the pain is out in the open. It is good for you to cry together.
*If your family is unable or unwilling to support you in your grieving, look for a support group of people who understand. Consider the organizations that have been formed to help grieving parents, such as Mothers Against Drunk Driving, Parents of Murdered Children, Victims for Victims and Compassionate Friends. Look for a counselor, chaplain, minister, or rabbi with skills in helping people who are experiencing grief following a trauma.
*Collect as much information as possible about how your child was killed. This information can be obtained from police reports, from autopsy reports, and by talking to the witnesses. It is important to collect this data for two reasons; your mind will rest better if you can "make sense" out of the experience: and, through collecting data, blame and responsibility can be placed appropriately.
*When disagreements and misunderstandings occur in your family, try not to vent anger by yelling, or screaming or verbally attacking. Own your own anger, but try not to target someone else in your family. Say "I love you" every time you even feel a hint of love. These words will be cherished.
*If sexual needs differ between you and your mate, talk about it and try to reach a reasonable compromise. Hugs and tenderly holding each other can be lifesavers, even when more explicit sexuality may not be possible.
*Consider keeping a journal or a diary. It can be helpful not only in giving you a way to release your feelings, but also in helping to measure your recovery.
*Remember, allowing yourself to feel better does not mean you are forgetting or being disloyal to your child. It means continuing to grieve but becoming less overwhelmed by it. It means that you believe that life as it goes on, matters. For your own sake and for others who need and love you, you have a responsibility to try to feel better.
*Have patience. Realize that the traditional "one year of grief" is not enough. Only a combination of time and hard work will lead to resolution of the pain and you will never be totally free of it. How hard you work at it and how long it takes is up to you.
From Kelly's Desk
I have been thinking lately, how we can make our surviving children feel special. Sometimes we get wrapped up in our grief, that we forget to let our earth angels know how very special they are. So for February, the month of love, I have found an idea to try with your children to show them how much they are appreciated. It is called the special plate.
I learned about the special plate from a family magazine I subscribe too. It's incredibly simple and involves no planning or cost.
On the evening that I introduced the kids to the special plate, I set the dinner table a little different. I set a different colored plate on my youngest son's placemat. When the family came to eat, and asked why Chase's plate was different, I explained that each night at dinner, a different person would get to eat off of this special plate (I rotate it from youngest to oldest).
During the meal, each family member would take a turn saying one thing he or she appreciates about the person with the special plate. Then the questions started "What if I can't think of anything I appreciate about him?" "why are we doing this?" I explained they had until dinner was over to think of something, but they had to say something. We are doing this just for fun, and if we decide that it's not fun after a few nights, we wont continue.
We have been doing this for about 2 weeks now. My kids love it and beam with pride at hearing all the things we appreciate about them. Now instead of "I can't think of anything." I have to keep them from saying more than one thing. I only let them say one thing. Then they have to wait until next time. (anticipation).
The special plate gives us an opportunity to acknowledge the small things we for each other, and let the person with the special plate know how much they are appreciated, by the whole family.
From Toad's Desk
Valentine's Day
Not Like it Used To Be
February 14 is Valentine's Day. Although it is celebrated as a lovers' holiday today, with the giving of candy, flowers, or other gifts between couples in love, it originated in 5th Century Rome as a tribute to St. Valentine, a Catholic bishop.
For eight hundred years prior to the establishment of Valentine's Day, the Romans had practiced a pagan celebration in mid-February commemorating young men's rite of passage to the god Lupercus. The celebration featured a lottery in which young men would draw the names of teenage girls from a box. The girl assigned to each young man in that manner would be his sexual companion during the remaining year.
In an effort to do away with the pagan festival, Pope Gelasius ordered a slight change in the lottery. Instead of the names of young women, the box would contain the names of saints. Both men and women were allowed to draw from the box, and the game was to emulate the ways of the saint they drew during the rest of the year. Needless to say, many of the young Roman men were not too pleased with the rule changes.
Instead of the pagan god Lupercus, the Church looked for a suitable patron saint of love to take his place. They found an appropriate choice in Valentine, who, in AD 270 had been beheaded by Emperor Claudius.
Claudius had determined that married men made poor soldiers. So he banned marriage from his empire. But Valentine would secretly marry young men that came to him. When Claudius found out about Valentine, he first tried to convert him to paganism. But Valentine reversed the strategy, trying instead to convert Claudius. When he failed, he was stoned and beheaded.
During the days that Valentine was imprisoned, he fell in love with the blind daughter of his jailer. His love for her, and his great faith, managed to miraculously heal her from her blindness before his death. Before he was taken to his death, he signed a farewell message to her, "From your Valentine." The phrase has been used on his day ever since.
Although the lottery for women had been banned by the church, the mid-February holiday in commemoration of St. Valentine was still used by Roman men to seek the affection of women. It became a tradition for the men to give the ones they admired handwritten messages of affection, containing Valentine's name.
The first Valentine card grew out of this practice. The first true Valentine card was sent in 1415 by Charles, duke of Orleans, to his wife. He was imprisoned in the Tower of London at the time.
Cupid, another symbol of the holiday, became associated with it because he was the son of Venus, the Roman god of love and beauty. Cupid often appears on Valentine cards
Angel Moms Retreat 2003
Hello ladies....:) It is that time of year again to start making plans for our Annual AngelMom Retreat!!!
For the ones that doesn't know what I am talking about, we plan a Retreat in Gatlinburg, Tennessee each summer. This will be our 3rd one! You can go to angelmoms. com and check out pictures and information about our 2 previous trips. The cabin information and pictures of it is also there.
It is an experience like no other.....:) Lots of hugs and tears and LOTS of laughter....very comfortable surroundings. Nice cabin in the mountains, wonderful Moms to be with. When you come to one, you can't imagine not coming to another one.
The dates this year is July 18th (fly in or drive in date) and all leaving July 22nd. That is Friday thru Tuesday. If you are flying in, the airport is McGhee Tyson in Knoxville, TN. When making flight plans please consider the fact that an early morning or late evening flight would not be workable for the group unless you plan on taking a taxi to or from the cabin. I will have my car since I live here, and last year Loni rented a car, and has suggested renting a van this year and everyone pitching in that is flying in. Believe me, this plan works...:) We have fine toothed it now...
Regarding cost, we will need to see how many are going for sure before I have exact amount of cost for cabin. Last year there were 11 of us and for 11, the cost was about $90.00 each for the cabin. We all will need to pitch in $20.00 for a food fund for food for the cabin. We ate in each breakfast, which gave everyone time to get dressed and such before we headed out for the day. We usually ate out at lunch (no where special) and tried to eat dinners at the cabin. They were usually late dinners...lol.
After you tell me you are coming and your money is in, there is no refunds because we do not get refunded from the cabin when there is changes. After I send in a certain amount of people coming, we are sent a notice saying how much is due and that amount has to be sent it as soon as possible. A check or money order is made out to me and I take it to the Manager in charge.
Keep my email address handy. I will answer any questions. Email me privately please because sometimes I read the AngelMom mail a couple days after it is posted and don't want you to think that I am ignoring you....:)
My E-mail:Debbie (MsBBSITTER@aol.com)
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Previous Retreats
Angel Moms Retreat 2001
Angel Moms Retreat 2002
A Thought
A small trouble is like a pebble. Hold it too close to your eye and it fills the whole world and puts everything out of focus. Hold it at a proper distance and it can be examined and properly classified. Throw it at your feet and it can be seen in its true setting, just one more tiny bump on the pathway to life.
- Celia Luce
What Angelmoms Means To Me
My name is Connie Sluss. My Angel Travis died on November 29, 2001. I was totally devastated. My life had no meaning no more. I didn’t even want to go on living. I prayed and asked God to take my soul and leave a child here. My purpose here was gone. I have alot of family and friends that are supportive but they’ve never lost a child and they just don’t understand the pain we go through. They associate it with losing a spouse, mother, father, etc. God knows that’s hard enough but this as we all know is so much worse and there is no comparison.
I’m not quite sure what month I joined Angelmoms, seems like it was May 2002. I’m not sure. I was watching John Edwards and they mentioned Angelmoms. I found it on the web and joined. To be honest I thought I was wasting my time and theirs because I have a hard time of opening up and saying what I feel. Not on Angelmoms. It took a long time for me to start posting. I would read them. I just wouldn’t post.
Angelmoms was my life raft in the deep, dark stormy sea in which I was slowly sinking. I started posting and made some really deep connections with these ladies. Judi built a website for Travis and I could never tell her just what that meant to me. Reeny and I connected right off. She wrote and said she bet Dustin and Travis were best buds and I felt right then that our angels brought us together. I know Travis knew I needed them.
This is the most loving, caring, supportive group of ladies you could ever find. I can honestly say I feel they saved my life. I’m lonely but I’m not alone anymore cause they are always there for me. They have given me so much helpful advice and some wonderful ideas that has helped this road I’m travelling become less rocky. I know the feelings and thoughts I’ve had are normal. At times I felt like maybe I was going crazy but they were there to tell me it was normal and it was still new to me, that one time or another they had felt that way too.
Before I met these ladies, I thought there were very few caring people in this world but I’m here to tell you there’s so much love here it’s almost unbelievable. I now think of these ladies as my family. I love them all very much. For all you new angelmoms, please don’t wait as long as I did to post and get involved. Believe me you will find comfort here. I know my son is alright, he has the best friends there is and I have their mothers as my friends. I love you all.
What Angelmoms Means To Me- It means: Life, Love, Comfort, Support, and Family. Thank you all for being my friends. Love, Connie Sluss MyAngelTravis
Here is an article given to me. Thought the group could relate to this.
Pat Goebel
"Thoughts on Living after the Loss of Someone You Love
by Kathleen O'Hara, M.A.
Most of us will agree there is life after death. Regardless of our spiritual beliefs, we acknowledge there is something after we die and our hope is that it is something wonderful, eternal and happy both for us and for those we love. But what most of us don't think about is how life is for the living after someone we love dies. How do we go on? How do we make sense of tragedy, suffering, loss and the depression which often accompany death?
In a recent survey, Americans were asked how long a person should grieve the loss of a loved one. The startling answer was THREE DAYS. This American attitude reflects the notion the grief is a passing phase which has a definite beginning and end and should be gone through and gotten over with as quickly as possible.
Such a notion is destructive as well as untrue. Ask anyone who has lost someone they love. Whether it is an "expected" passing, such as an elderly parent or an unexpected tragedy, death changes life. We are different. Lilfe is different. Our sense of order and meaning and who we are in relation to what and who we have lost changes and begins a journey which we must undertake, whether we choose to or not.
In my own experience, when my eldest son was kidnapped and murdered three years ago, grieving was and often still is a full time, all encompassing experience. Although my grief is more manageable now, I am still unexpectedly thrown into a well of different feelings by sometimes the smallest things. I can be walking down the street and see a small blond child or see a russet leaf fall to the ground from a tree in autumn. My feelings range from complete sadness to anger, grustration, anxiety, despair and hopelessness. Sometimes, there is acceptance, sometimes there is the deep and compelling knowledge that he is happy now where he is and will never suffer again. Sometimes, there are moments of peace. Always, there is an ongoing challenge to find meaning and happiness in life here on earth, among the living.
Grief is not orderly, nor does it fit neatly into our life. It is our life. Victor Frankel, a beloved teacher and author who survived five concentration camps, often said in his writings: "Make me worthy of my suffering." Loss, depression, death are all experiences in our lives as humans. Grief is the result of our losses and it is full of suffering. Frankel knew this was our fate as human beings, but it is how we suffer that makes all the difference.
Often, we reject suffering and try to move on as though nothing happened, or we are so overwhelmed, we cannot find relief or peace. We isolate and try to manage our pain ourselves. Sometimes illness results because we are not dealing with our grief, but, instead, pushing it into some place in our body. We often feel unable to cope with intense suffering and don't know what to do. We have feelings of despair, anger, anxiety, loneliness and have no remedies available to us, so we suffer alone.
Psychotherapy can be a valuable asset in managing our suffering. Unfortunately, it is often presented in the "closure," or the "let's get through it so we can move on to something else" model. This is because many therapies relate to a model which does not allow for the brokenness or the suffering of human beings. But it is precisely this brokenness, this suffering, which encourages the development of the fully human being, one who is capable of understanding suffering, not rushing through it but, instead, allowing it to shape one's character and develop strength, compassion and wisdom.
Since suffering is a part of life, and grief is the vehicle most of us will encounter i our lives, we need to ask ourselves the questions, how do we suffer, and how can we be worthy of our own sufferings? Perhaps the first step is realizing we are human and that our grief is real, natural and inescapable. It is a long process with many twists and turns. It is not something which is predictable or written in a book on how to do it. Allow it to shape and transform your life, and it will. Allow new meanings and new values to emerge from the well of sadness. Recognize that you will be changed, irrevocably, and perhaps that wil be a good thing. Your suffering may well help another human being in ways you will never know.
In our world today, especially post 9/11 we are reminded of the fragility of human life and how in a mement everything changes. Death is like that, but life continues, in spite of sufferings and often because of it. How will we live today?
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Editor: Judi,
Staff: Toad (Carin), Deb, Debbie, Kelly
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